Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[homwardbound]

I painted the most hideous flower ever; it was warped and weird and twisted and sickly. I tried to fix it, but it just kept getting worse. I couldn't change it, so I tried to hide it; I surrounded it with pretty flowers, but that only made it stand out worse. So then I painted over it, over the whole thing, with black, twice, because I kept missing parts. But then I couldn't paint anything else, because the black just sucked up all the other colors. So I painted over it again, with white, and the other layers of paint started to run through because...

that's way too much stinking paint.

The hideous flower was much better than all my attempts to change it or fix it. I only made it worse when I should have just left it alone.

Miss Chris, I would like to copy this and use it on the blog I write, I will use your name as the one that wrote this awesome analogy of our self natures in trying to fix ourselves and how we make it worse?
Or leave your name out whatever you prefer.
And if ever interested in reading this blog it is at FREED AT LAST
Thank you in advance, just an awesome analogy to me

 

[homwardbound]

I seriously doubt it's a lack of faith (ha! See what I did there) keeping this apartment complex from using the more sensible basket and pulley system. Also, I was trying to witness to the mosquitoes...apparently they don't like Jesus. That, or my blood is like a delicacy. 25 bites on my legs. More appearing all the time. Yaaay...

Sorry for all the bites, yet thank you for the laugh you are crazy, loving it

 

[MissCris]

Miss Chris, I would like to copy this and use it on the blog I write, I will use your name as the one that wrote this awesome analogy of our self natures in trying to fix ourselves and how we make it worse?
Or leave your name out whatever you prefer.
And if ever interested in reading this blog it is at FREED AT LAST
Thank you in advance, just an awesome analogy to me

I don't mind if you use it er, my name or what I wrote. Go for it.

 

[homwardbound]

I don't mind if you use it er, my name or what I wrote. Go for it.

Thank you Sister Thank you, for love overwhelms, too bad your Husband does not see this yet? and too bad its too late for him. praying he accepts this as it is what it is for the both of you alls sake, especially the kids
praying for his understanding of salvation that brings compassion one to another? And leaves the carnal mindedness dead to and in the grave
God willing, which I know God is willing, problem is us men can be stubborn to want our way or no way attitudes, and as I see today that is just not true love. Anyway, blessings to you as you are growing in this compassion from God to you, that is pouring out of you to others regardless of how they treat you

 

[MissCris]

I don't know what it is with me lately; one day I'm strong and on top of the world, feeling like no matter what happens now, I've got this. Knowing that God has things under control, that He is with me, that He will get me through this.
And then there are days like today, when I feel totally alone and long to be able to hide under my ginormous, fluffy blanket and pretend I don't exist.

All of my thoughts and feelings are at war with each other...

I want to prove to everyone that I'm fine, more than fine, that I'm starting my new life and that I'm happy to be on my own. I want people to regret every moment that they don't get to be a part of my life. I want to be able to stand with my head held high and say "I'm better off now and you're missing out"...

And at the same time, I don't want that at all. At the same time, I want to let them all see the weakness, the fear, the hurt and rejection, and let someone comfort me. Let someone rescue me.

And yet again at the same time, I want to be ok so everyone else is ok. I want to know how to love everyone the right way, the way I should have all this time, instead of in my own selfish ways. I want to be their comfort and strength even though I feel so empty myself.

My pride is battling my heart.

There's all kinds of confusion going on up in here.

 

[MissCris]

So um...to avoid any assumptions or misunderstanding...my previous post has nothing to do with...yesterday. That stuff. I realized belatedly...um, stuff...and things...oh boy. I'll just shuffle on out of here now...

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

I don't know what it is with me lately; one day I'm strong and on top of the world, feeling like no matter what happens now, I've got this. Knowing that God has things under control, that He is with me, that He will get me through this.
And then there are days like today, when I feel totally alone and long to be able to hide under my ginormous, fluffy blanket and pretend I don't exist.

All of my thoughts and feelings are at war with each other...

I want to prove to everyone that I'm fine, more than fine, that I'm starting my new life and that I'm happy to be on my own. I want people to regret every moment that they don't get to be a part of my life. I want to be able to stand with my head held high and say "I'm better off now and you're missing out"...

And at the same time, I don't want that at all. At the same time, I want to let them all see the weakness, the fear, the hurt and rejection, and let someone comfort me. Let someone rescue me.

And yet again at the same time, I want to be ok so everyone else is ok. I want to know how to love everyone the right way, the way I should have all this time, instead of in my own selfish ways. I want to be their comfort and strength even though I feel so empty myself.

My pride is battling my heart.

There's all kinds of confusion going on up in here.

This type of stuff happens & it's really nothing to get too upset over. I believe it's completely normal. I know that's not the pat Christian answer,but that's what I believe. It's like you've never worked out in your life & then in the past 2 weeks all you've done is cardio & intense weight training,and yer' body is rebelling. Yer' heart & mind are tied into one another and when emotions & feelings come at you it seems overwhelming because you've been so intense lately. I think that's when it feels like it hits you harder.

BTW..you don't have to "prove" anything to anyone. Not even to God. He knows yer' heart,and He sees you are wanting to make the right changes in your life,He's gonna and is honoring that. When you feel like you do today,just cry out to Him & ask Him to be Lord over your emotions. Not saying yer' gonna magically feel better right away..but the more often you go to Him when yer' having days like this,the easier it gets to deal with this stuff when it comes at you.

As always,you & the kiddos are in my prayers.

 

[BugeyeSTi]

Comments like this from my customers (Not the company I work for mind you) really make happy. =)

Harness is amazing quality. I think you have a good thing going here man. Very impressed. Will leave feedback later. Thanks again!

 

[kenthomas27]

It's ok MissCris - few of us connect the dots. Most of us are too self-absorbed for that. You know tho, the thread the other day about the story of the eye of the needle and Jesus telling us that it's easier for us to slip through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the Kingdom of God comes to mind. This turmoil - this strife we all put ourselves through.... oh God, it was so painful reading AprilAngel and her pleas for ....what? Compassion? Understanding? Forgivness? And it seems we carry these heavy BURDENS like a bag of hammers, dragging them through rocky fields and getting caught and wedged at every step and I'D LIKE TO SCREAM THIS IS WHAT JESUS TOLD THAT MAN! He told that man in Matthew 19 to give up what he had and to follow Him. We make all these speculations that this was about the rich man but it's NOT. It's about us! It's about what we CARRY WITH US. Is our money heavier than our remorse? Would we give money to free ourselves from grief or strife or remorse or the burdens or MissCris turmoil in her heart? We all WANT to enter the Kingdom of God, but what did Jesus say? Where did Christ say the Kingdom of God was but right HERE, but that in order to enter that Kingdom we would need to unburden ourselves. It's only when we stand before God as NOTHING, free of the things we think we need and free of the bag of hammers and free from the knives we use to cut that we become small enough to pass through the eye of the needle.

Wow how AprilAngel's message was hard to read and made me hurt and how I can't respond and don't have the words and am nothing and no help.

 

[MissCris]

Ken- I could hug you right now.
I won't though, because I'm all weepy and I don't want to get snot on your shirt.

 

[Fenner]

It's ok MissCris - few of us connect the dots. Most of us are too self-absorbed for that. You know tho, the thread the other day about the story of the eye of the needle and Jesus telling us that it's easier for us to slip through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the Kingdom of God comes to mind. This turmoil - this strife we all put ourselves through.... oh God, it was so painful reading AprilAngel and her pleas for ....what? Compassion? Understanding? Forgivness? And it seems we carry these heavy BURDENS like a bag of hammers, dragging them through rocky fields and getting caught and wedged at every step and I'D LIKE TO SCREAM THIS IS WHAT JESUS TOLD THAT MAN! He told that man in Matthew 19 to give up what he had and to follow Him. We make all these speculations that this was about the rich man but it's NOT. It's about us! It's about what we CARRY WITH US. Is our money heavier than our remorse? Would we give money to free ourselves from grief or strife or remorse or the burdens or MissCris turmoil in her heart? We all WANT to enter the Kingdom of God, but what did Jesus say? Where did Christ say the Kingdom of God was but right HERE, but that in order to enter that Kingdom we would need to unburden ourselves. It's only when we stand before God as NOTHING, free of the things we think we need and free of the bag of hammers and free from the knives we use to cut that we become small enough to pass through the eye of the needle.

Wow how AprilAngel's message was hard to read and made me hurt and how I can't respond and don't have the words and am nothing and no help.

You're smart for a duck.

 

[Fenner]

My kids are arguing about a pool noodle. Le sigh.

 

[kenthomas27]

Ken- I could hug you right now.
I won't though, because I'm all weepy and I don't want to get snot on your shirt.

well i'm grateful for that.




tastes like chicken soup but it snot.

 

[Raine]

Ugly ate snot today... :/

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

well i'm grateful for that.




tastes like chicken soup but it snot.

I just threw up a little in my mouth.

(It didn't taste like chicken soup.)

 

[Raine]

MissCris has been coming up with awesome threads! I think we should make her the official thread starter in the singles section... Oh, am I asking for too much? :/

 

[MissCris]

I have just woken up from a glorious nap during which I got to hide under my ginormous fluffy blanket and wallow just a tiny lit bit before drifting off into the best sleep I've had for a week. I feel fantastic, and I haven't even had any coffee yet.

As for my threads...aw, thanks Raine buuuut that's a pretty high pressure job : p

 

[tourist]

MissCris has been coming up with awesome threads! I think we should make her the official thread starter in the singles section... Oh, am I asking for too much? :/

I can go along with that, she will be the single official fire starter. You idea has merit and gets my vote.

 

[Fenner]

Went to the zoo today, it was hot, really hot, so hot that the animals didn't even like it. I had to wear a dorky hat so my scalp wouldn't get sunburned again. We spent a lot of time in the little air conditioned building, it was pretty nice. Watched these little guys called Gibbons, I think. Cute little fellas. They really wanted my popcorn, but no they can't have it.

 

[tourist]

Trying not to overdose myself on tylenol...

You need sleep.