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lil_christian

lil_christian

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Right now...I am struggling with what God wants me to do. I think I want, well GOD wants me to be a youth leader and a worship leader...but, there's so many other people that are so much better than me. SO MUCH better. I'm just average. I am NOTHING special. I have just an okay singing voice, and I can't do anything crazy awesome on guitar, even though I've been playing for 7.5 years now. While I'm pretty good for being a teenage girl on guitar...I feel like I could be SO much better. Especially doing lead guitar. I probably need worship training.

With that being said, "I'm not good enough," has never been a valid enough reason for God. Bah.
 
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lil_christian said:
Right now...I am struggling with what God wants me to do. I think I want to be a youth leader and a worship leader...but, there's so many other people that are so much better than me. SO MUCH better. I'm just average. I am NOTHING special. I have just an okay singing voice, and I can't do anything crazy awesome on guitar, even though I've been playing for 7.5 years now. While I'm pretty good for being a teenage girl on guitar...I feel like I could be SO much better. Especially doing lead guitar. I probably need worship training.

With that being said, "I'm not good enough," has never been a valid enough reason for God. Bah.
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You are good enough. Just believe in yourself as the Lord believes in you.
 
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Hey y'all. Please keep me in your prayers. I am going through a really hard time.
Like a really hard time. Like i wish my tears would show through the screen so people understand i am going through a hard time haha
 
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Taith said:
Hey y'all. Please keep me in your prayers. I am going through a really hard time.
Like a really hard time. Like i wish my tears would show through the screen so people understand i am going through a hard time haha
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Hey, will be praying, feel free to inbox me if you ever wish to talk.
 
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Taith said:
Hey y'all. Please keep me in your prayers. I am going through a really hard time.
Like a really hard time. Like i wish my tears would show through the screen so people understand i am going through a hard time haha
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Hey, mate. I'll be praying for you. Is there anything specific you would like prayer for?
 
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lil_christian said:
Right now...I am struggling with what God wants me to do. I think I want, well GOD wants me to be a youth leader and a worship leader...but, there's so many other people that are so much better than me. SO MUCH better. I'm just average. I am NOTHING special. I have just an okay singing voice, and I can't do anything crazy awesome on guitar, even though I've been playing for 7.5 years now. While I'm pretty good for being a teenage girl on guitar...I feel like I could be SO much better. Especially doing lead guitar. I probably need worship training.

With that being said, "I'm not good enough," has never been a valid enough reason for God. Bah.
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My mom likes to say, "God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called."

David was very young when he was called to king, and he was "only" a shepherd before that. Mary was a virgin when told she'd be the mother of Christ. Moses was called to free his people and he even told God, "I'm terrible at speaking...you should probably find someone else." He questioned God's choice.

"Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?" And God said, "I will be with you." (Exodus 3:11-12a)

Love you, lil. Glad you're back on CC, sharing your heart. :)
 
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Taith said:
Hey y'all. Please keep me in your prayers. I am going through a really hard time.
Like a really hard time. Like i wish my tears would show through the screen so people understand i am going through a hard time haha
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What is wrong, my friend? I have said a prayer for you because I do not know what else to do.
 
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Hi Rachel, I'm seriously proud of the way you've been stepping out in faith of late. It's not easy but it's necessary and worthwhile. I'm cheering you on, sister! *waves pom-poms and leaps into the air screaming (in a manly manner)*
 
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lil_christian said:
Right now...I am struggling with what God wants me to do. I think I want, well GOD wants me to be a youth leader and a worship leader...but, there's so many other people that are so much better than me. SO MUCH better. I'm just average. I am NOTHING special. I have just an okay singing voice, and I can't do anything crazy awesome on guitar, even though I've been playing for 7.5 years now. While I'm pretty good for being a teenage girl on guitar...I feel like I could be SO much better. Especially doing lead guitar. I probably need worship training.

With that being said, "I'm not good enough," has never been a valid enough reason for God. Bah.
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Ok Moses =P
 
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tourist said:
What is wrong, my friend? I have said a prayer for you because I do not know what else to do.
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I got dumped.
I asked God to change this girl's heart towards me. And He did... But regardless, I still loved her very very much. And now, it feels like everything she said was a lie. I feel worthless now..
I just, I am sure it sounds pathetic, all of this. Just another break up! But, its like pain is all I know. Everyone I have loved/love has hurt me. I can't stop loving though, God gave me a heart with a lot of love. But its like my love is always "I love you, but you will hurt me"
I don't want pain anymore. I really don't...
 
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I got dumped.
I asked God to change this girl's heart towards me. And He did... But regardless, I still loved her very very much. And now, it feels like everything she said was a lie. I feel worthless now..
I just, I am sure it sounds pathetic, all of this. Just another break up! But, its like pain is all I know. Everyone I have loved/love has hurt me. I can't stop loving though, God gave me a heart with a lot of love. But its like my love is always "I love you, but you will hurt me"
I don't want pain anymore. I really don't...
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Listen friend. I am in the same boat as you, heart full of love and no one to share it with. This is probably not the last time you will be dumped. Just get up, dust yourself off and move forward. Eventually, Miss Right is going to catch up to you. As for myself, I am getting out of the game as I have reached my tolerance of pain. Chin up. Go to Taco Bell. Don't drink and drive. Say your prayers and you will come out on top, sooner rather than later.
 
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tourist said:
Listen friend. I am in the same boat as you, heart full of love and no one to share it with. This is probably not the last time you will be dumped. Just get up, dust yourself off and move forward. Eventually, Miss Right is going to catch up to you. As for myself, I am getting out of the game as I have reached my tolerance of pain. Chin up. Go to Taco Bell. Don't drink and drive. Say your prayers and you will come out on top, sooner rather than later.
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You know. I pray this is the only break up. And you saying that, brought tears of joy to my eyes. I don't want my love wasted anymore. I know I am not much, if I could be counted anything. But, I do have a loving heart...
 
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Taith said:
I got dumped.
I asked God to change this girl's heart towards me. And He did... But regardless, I still loved her very very much. And now, it feels like everything she said was a lie. I feel worthless now..
I just, I am sure it sounds pathetic, all of this. Just another break up! But, its like pain is all I know. Everyone I have loved/love has hurt me. I can't stop loving though, God gave me a heart with a lot of love. But its like my love is always "I love you, but you will hurt me"
I don't want pain anymore. I really don't...
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Taith, I PM'd you. Hang in there, mate. :)
 
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Taith said:
You know. I pray this is the only break up. And you saying that, brought tears of joy to my eyes. I don't want my love wasted anymore. I know I am not much, if I could be counted anything. But, I do have a loving heart...
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You and I will both be OK. I don't drink anymore and you are too young (chuckle) but if that were not the case we could discuss our sorry love lives over a couple or three ice cold Buds. No wacky weed though, I don't do that.
 
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Taith said:
I got dumped.
I asked God to change this girl's heart towards me. And He did... But regardless, I still loved her very very much. And now, it feels like everything she said was a lie. I feel worthless now..
I just, I am sure it sounds pathetic, all of this. Just another break up! But, its like pain is all I know. Everyone I have loved/love has hurt me. I can't stop loving though, God gave me a heart with a lot of love. But its like my love is always "I love you, but you will hurt me"
I don't want pain anymore. I really don't...
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Break ups suck. They don't get any easier, either.

But the pain DOES subside, a little here and there until one day you wake up and realize you survived it. And I know it doesn't feel like it now, but you'll be ok...stronger for it. I'll be praying for you :)
 
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rachelsedge said:
My mom likes to say, "God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called."

David was very young when he was called to king, and he was "only" a shepherd before that. Mary was a virgin when told she'd be the mother of Christ. Moses was called to free his people and he even told God, "I'm terrible at speaking...you should probably find someone else." He questioned God's choice.

"Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?" And God said, "I will be with you." (Exodus 3:11-12a)

Love you, lil. Glad you're back on CC, sharing your heart. :)
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and what of you ms. rachelsedge? Genesis 12:1
 
lil_christian

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rachelsedge said:
My mom likes to say, "God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called."

David was very young when he was called to king, and he was "only" a shepherd before that. Mary was a virgin when told she'd be the mother of Christ. Moses was called to free his people and he even told God, "I'm terrible at speaking...you should probably find someone else." He questioned God's choice.

"Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?" And God said, "I will be with you." (Exodus 3:11-12a)

Love you, lil. Glad you're back on CC, sharing your heart. :)
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Love you too, Rachel. :) I talked with my youth pastor at my other youth group...but I think I want to be a leader at my home church, too. While I'm not the kind of person that's all crazy and cool and not everyone's first thought is, "WOW I GOTTA BE AROUND THIS PERSON!!" I think this world needs a bit of..."level-headedness." Especially youth kids and the crazy lives they live. This isn't a decision to be taken lightly, though. And timing is something SO HUGE right now. I've already put in my tuition deposit for college...but suddenly, I'm not so sure about college, at least for the time being. I need something extremely clear and I NEED to know it came from God. I don't want to waste time or money doing something I had no business doing.

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Ok Moses =P
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Oh hush, you. :p hahaha
 
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Everyone who has been talking about my problem. I just want to say something.

I was talking to someone, and I was walking the Christian walk. I mean, I am saved for sure! But, there is always something we walk even if we don't know it.
And mine was with loving God. I always said He had my whole heart, But it was not true. And well, it got fixed. May I say wow? I just want to laugh at it all. I finally love Him more. Its amazing what we have to go through to get better.

I am over it, Just like that. And well... wow.
 
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Lil_Christian, I'm also glad you're back. It's been too long. Sounds like God's really working in and through you. Something's a'brewing. Bless you sister!
 
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