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You have not told us enough about yourself to be able to give you solid direction. I don't know your age, you don't tell us your spiritual relationship to God, the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Most all the posts have good directions for you to follow. If you will Repent of your sins, Trust in Jesus as your Savior. and obey Jesus as your Lord, God will teach you his word and direct your path to glorify Him. The Apostle Paul, at his age and experience in doing God's will, had to confess that he had "little sins" "little foxes" that picked at his vine.,spoiling some of his fruit,at times, He repented of them, more than once, and moved on, delighting to keep the laws of God for Christians in the New T. plan for us, Paul left the legalism of the OLD T. for the liberty in Christ. But still had many "duties" to do in Christ. I was widowed in 2007 ( in New York) and after failng for 8 months of searching for my new mate, I visited the Philippines and remarried God's choice for me, and it has been a "rough row to hoe", but it is God's will for me. I will not run away from my problems, because they are not life threatening, so I stay in the bed I made. And I can see more blessings, down the road, in our ministry. My Wife is young, impetuous , loud, condemning, rude, but is starting to repent of her sins and the sins of her family, and I am repenting of my anger of the situation I got myself into. JUST, make sure you are on the "narrow" road that leads to Heaven. Love to all, Hoffco