I dont know but I've been growing into something scary & useless time by time, I'm thinking the reason why I was born into this world. Dont know what to do in rest of my life & what have been happening to my life all the way down, losing so many friends to nothing cause I didnt trust them anymore, I hate myself because I knew about sex knowledges and I couldnt do anything with my hands, suddenly I'm thinking that I'm God's ( Elohim ) creation & I should blame Him for creating me, and hate everything that have been created by God, You know that God have power to end this world, but why to save human from sins that have been connecting many generations to eternal suffer LIKE ME. I hate majority of religion in my country, they are suppresing Christian, they're happy when they could convert someone to their side,WORLD DIDNT KNOW IT.
God, I knew you're in Your Most Holy Place all these time, watching over us, but why God you could not help us to come to Your place to be HOLY like You. WHY??!!! Why did you choose Abel, Enoch, Moses, Elijah, Jehovah and other Saints but not me. Letting me like this rusted and tormented, I knew it's not only me that thinking like this but what then... It's useless, I want going somewhere, hope that new life would come out different...
Please, anyone, I could not bear anymore of it, especially about Sex Knowledges ( I hate it most ) and everyday I hate EVERYTHING MORE AND MORE
I'm thinking if I wasnt born to this world, it would be better, but I remember that darkness & loneliness bring me chill out. And about SUICIDE, I didnt want to do it because I hear and read that their soul will be deliver into Eternal Torment, Hell, itself, because wasting Life that have been granted to them. So then, why God creating all of those thing?
I didnt care how long that this world have been created. BUT I'M QUESTIONING TO MYSELF WHY I COULDNT BE LIKE THOSE SAINTS, HOLY. I'M REALLY ENVY TO ENOCH'S STORIES ABOUT HOW HE LIFTED TO HEAVEN BECAUSE HIS RELATIONSHIP TO GOD, ELOHIM. I'm not that diligent to read Holy Bible but I've read some of it.
All of it making me sane and sick, I'm thinking that God could do destruction and creation but why he couldnt keep me from SINS. Human trying to release themselves from pain by drugs and another joy.
GOD I KNOW THAT YOURE HIDING SOMETHING, YOURE IGNORANCE GOD LETTING YOUR CREATION FALL TO THE DARKNESS, BUT YOURE KEEPING YOURSELF IN THE MOST HOLY PLACE
God, youre predicting and knowing about anti-Christ, but you let them lost to that way. You could unifying everything God but why you didnt do it. God why youre not sweep us with your wrath so we feel fear to You.
Atheist, Pagan, and other, what is that happening to us? LOSING FAITH, OF COURSE.
UNIVERSE is wide and vast.
KNOWLEDGES are infinitive.
LOVE AND HATE are momentarily thing.
God, you could RAISE anyone from Death.
SEX, for me is unproper, even it was GIFT.
As Christian, I hate myself for being useless, so Angels laughing at me.
What are you doing God in that time when I hope MIRACLE come everyday to my life, when everything would end.
Gay, Heterosexual, Bisexual, Transgender, what the heck is that state contaminate this entire life. Why You didnt annihilate everything like at Noah's TIME.
God I want to that place PROMISING LANDS, but with this condition did I deserve for it. Tell me everyone about everything You know about this world. I want to go to the bosom of my birth when I'm looking at You.
Oh and one more thing that Heaven and Hell are located in PARALLEL WORLD, so no one stupid dare to step their reach to that place. I'm going to end that PAIN and DIVERSION with something that you hide, God. Something that is called TECHNOLOGY. Everyone, especially Christian, I HATE EVERYTHING THAT GOD HAVE BEEN CREATED.
EVEN I'M LOOKING TO YOU, YOURE NOT THERE. WHY???
I'M ASKING YOU GOD, WHHHYYY?!!!
God, I knew you're in Your Most Holy Place all these time, watching over us, but why God you could not help us to come to Your place to be HOLY like You. WHY??!!! Why did you choose Abel, Enoch, Moses, Elijah, Jehovah and other Saints but not me. Letting me like this rusted and tormented, I knew it's not only me that thinking like this but what then... It's useless, I want going somewhere, hope that new life would come out different...
Please, anyone, I could not bear anymore of it, especially about Sex Knowledges ( I hate it most ) and everyday I hate EVERYTHING MORE AND MORE
I'm thinking if I wasnt born to this world, it would be better, but I remember that darkness & loneliness bring me chill out. And about SUICIDE, I didnt want to do it because I hear and read that their soul will be deliver into Eternal Torment, Hell, itself, because wasting Life that have been granted to them. So then, why God creating all of those thing?
I didnt care how long that this world have been created. BUT I'M QUESTIONING TO MYSELF WHY I COULDNT BE LIKE THOSE SAINTS, HOLY. I'M REALLY ENVY TO ENOCH'S STORIES ABOUT HOW HE LIFTED TO HEAVEN BECAUSE HIS RELATIONSHIP TO GOD, ELOHIM. I'm not that diligent to read Holy Bible but I've read some of it.
All of it making me sane and sick, I'm thinking that God could do destruction and creation but why he couldnt keep me from SINS. Human trying to release themselves from pain by drugs and another joy.
GOD I KNOW THAT YOURE HIDING SOMETHING, YOURE IGNORANCE GOD LETTING YOUR CREATION FALL TO THE DARKNESS, BUT YOURE KEEPING YOURSELF IN THE MOST HOLY PLACE
God, youre predicting and knowing about anti-Christ, but you let them lost to that way. You could unifying everything God but why you didnt do it. God why youre not sweep us with your wrath so we feel fear to You.
Atheist, Pagan, and other, what is that happening to us? LOSING FAITH, OF COURSE.
UNIVERSE is wide and vast.
KNOWLEDGES are infinitive.
LOVE AND HATE are momentarily thing.
God, you could RAISE anyone from Death.
SEX, for me is unproper, even it was GIFT.
As Christian, I hate myself for being useless, so Angels laughing at me.
What are you doing God in that time when I hope MIRACLE come everyday to my life, when everything would end.
Gay, Heterosexual, Bisexual, Transgender, what the heck is that state contaminate this entire life. Why You didnt annihilate everything like at Noah's TIME.
God I want to that place PROMISING LANDS, but with this condition did I deserve for it. Tell me everyone about everything You know about this world. I want to go to the bosom of my birth when I'm looking at You.
Oh and one more thing that Heaven and Hell are located in PARALLEL WORLD, so no one stupid dare to step their reach to that place. I'm going to end that PAIN and DIVERSION with something that you hide, God. Something that is called TECHNOLOGY. Everyone, especially Christian, I HATE EVERYTHING THAT GOD HAVE BEEN CREATED.
EVEN I'M LOOKING TO YOU, YOURE NOT THERE. WHY???
I'M ASKING YOU GOD, WHHHYYY?!!!