Thank you for being honest and I totally understand. I have been married before and I am divorced. I married my high school sweetheart and we had no baggage I guess you could say, considering we were 15 when we started. I now have baggage and God has been so good to me with digging deep within me to handle all my issues and sort them out as they have cause my relationships after my marriage to break, because I brought the baggage and the Uhaul truck into the relationships, lol.
Ive been on the other side and your right, it is ALOT of work. I remember the last relationship I was in, I remember wishing I was single because of all the pressure and stress of trying to please another person. At times I do sit alone and soak it in, knowing that it wont always be just me and Christ! Im trying my hardest during this time to work on myself, grow, lose weight, pay of debt, help others, fix my weaknesses because when Im in a relationship, I wont have this time and availability. Just like with everything there are pros and cons. Being lonely, or trying to find someone to go on a trip with, or just a big ole hug and kiss is sometimes something you miss. Thank you again for sharing!!!!! Sometimes we need to be reminded that being single are pros to it! So is marriage.......it sounds like you are doing a great job and I will pray that God will help the burden on your shoulders of being a leader and an example to your wife and kids