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Hey guys, i have not much good news, I am pretty down and out, I have reached a low I have never reached before. I feel like God has stolen all my hopes and dreams and crushed them, and I am losing faith slowly because things are getting worse and I am barely keeping it together. I already attempted suicide twice and didn't go through with it, but this is ridiculous. My brain has become unbalanced with antipsychotics, I got off them but who knows for how long. I have prayed for God to intervene and heal me, and so far I only got a slight healing that went away in a few minutes. I am wasted, I am tired, I don't believe God can save me because He will not do anything, I have tried and believed my hardest and he has not helped me out where I need Him the most. I want my circumstances to change, if not I will inevitably commit suicide because there is nothing more I can tolerate. I had hopes and dreams, I feel like my entire life has been a sham, I ruined lots and have so many regrets that I wish I could go back and fix, I wish God would change my life or kill me and give me peace.
Please pray for me that God might have a change of mind or heart or relent or be merciful and favourable to me and change my life and circumstances because I prayed and believed, and things are moving somewhere I am sure of that, but I lack the strength and the energy to carry forward, my health is spent, and I want to not live anymore. Thanks.
Please pray for me that God might have a change of mind or heart or relent or be merciful and favourable to me and change my life and circumstances because I prayed and believed, and things are moving somewhere I am sure of that, but I lack the strength and the energy to carry forward, my health is spent, and I want to not live anymore. Thanks.