Depression, Suicide, Hopeless

Well if you can't put your faith in God anymore then find something else you trust to put it into. Because you have to put your faith into something period or you'll despair. You can always put it back in God later once you feel better and can trust him again.

Fubario I prayed for you last night and God sent me a dream that might have pertained to you... I believe it did because of what I've just read and I am so relieved you are alive!
I dreamt of a young king who had a kingdom to rule but he was very beaten up in spirit and his relationship with God was not as it should. He knew he did some things wrong and thought God judged him all the time, struggled to accept forgiveness just thought he was bad although God's purpose was that he repents and be forgiven. He decided to drink poison and die. Which he did, but the poison needed some time to start working. Then he started thinking how there were others who needed his care and what would happen with them and there was this princess who loved him and she started crying when she found out. Still he said no when she tried to get him to the doctors to clean his stomach of poison. He laid in a chamber to die, somebody covered his body. He was already cold and asleep. But life won somehow and although he was cold he started getting back to life, there were things to finish and love to be found. And the princess who loved him was very overjoyed that he did not die. I am not kidding or inventing, I really had this dream.

I was thinking about you much of the day today Bro, there was one more thing in the dream that makes me believe there is generationals involved in this. In the dream, the young king's parents had also drank poison and died. This I firmly believe means that there is the spirit of depression or its roots present in history on both sides of the family. It might be something else (maybe they are unbelievers?), but just in case, praying that any generational sins and curses are nailed to the Cross and dealt with by Jesus! Asking Him also to send a legion of His holy angels to battle on your behalf and especially the demon that nags the most to you and prevents His Word from being heard! Father we ask for Fubario's deliverance for the glory of God as we continue to uphold him in Spirit. amen

To drink poison really means to believe lies of the devil and listen to his words, because vipers hold poison in their mouth. This is how God sees your condition right now... the devil is lying to you that God hates people and that life has to be miserable and that there is no hope and future. This is the poison... While in God's eyes, there is a glorious plan and a future. I dont know who the young Lady was and if she is already in your life, but she loves you so much and I believe she is a part of His plan too!

I never dreamt being a man in first person before, so I'm positive this one was for you. I didnt understand the meaning and I logged in this morning... it hit me when I've seen this thread.

I need your prayers, I keep hearing God telling me hes going to send me to hell for choosing a particular girl because it means I will go through Job and then apparently God is telling me because of this I will blaspheme and go to Hell, please pray for me, I wanted this girl so bad and even prayed for Job to happen to me to try to get a good life for me and her and now I am going down.

What is the biblical basis for this thinking? Where in the NT is someone sent to hell, as a Christian, over making one bad decision or disobeying God? If you have no biblical basis to support this idea then you have clearly not tested the spirit telling you this, and therefore who knows what spirit you're listening to.
I'm guessing you mean going through a trial like Job. Job was not punished, he was seen as faithful to God and God allowed Job to be tested by Satan to prove to Satan that Job would not deny God. And because of Jobs faithfulness he was given back everything he lost and more than he had. So your comparing or asking to be put through what Job was, because of picking a girl, is way off the real context of Job.
You can't ask God to put you through what Job went through so you can have personal gain. This is a flawed thinking on many levels.
Really not a single thing you've spoken of so far lines up with the bible.

I sent you an email with information where you can get help. Please contact them.

Do you believe in Jesus Christ? If so, believing that He died on the cross to save humanity from their sins is what we need in order to not be condemned, since Jesus was the only pure and divine being that was capable to take on what we deserve and He rose again.

Unfortunately, things happen in life and it doesn't make an average Christian to have it better if not worse than anyone else. It rains and shines among the wicked and righteous. While it's good to listen to what you may think is best (and God given), that's not what determines your salvation in of itself. I'm sorry for what you're going through and hopefully it can resolve in a way that fits best.

Many of us know what you are going through. Elijah got so low saying ' Lord take my life', God said not gonna happen. I'm using you.
The sun will shine again. Stay steadfast. I'll pray.

I am so confused right now I don't even know what to do.
Sorry to ask but can someone pray for me, everything stopped making sense.

God is not the author of confusion. It's demons blocking your line with the Throne.
Praise helps in such situations, it silences the enemy. You will feel better... Play some worship music.
All you really need to do is rest in God's finished work and believe Him.
God does not give us laundry lists of things to do... His guidance does not work that way... no stressing.
He stirs up your heart in a given moment to lead you to venture somewhere together with Him. He is not loud like demons, the truth does not need to yell, he is like the small still voice in your heart. Be open to His instructions and He'll guide you, you dont need to stress about it... He will not put too many tasks on your plate at once.
God please rebuke this spirit of confusion.

Dearest Fubario, First of all, let me give you a (((((((big hug))))))) to let you know that you are Most Special in the eyes of God!

I am very sorry to hear about your concerns and what you have contemplated doing to yourself. You need to know and understand that when a person is at their lowest point that is when the devil will attack as they are at their weakest. Those thoughts you have about committing suicide are not coming from God. They are deceitful tools used by Satan to try to lure you into thinking that God does not care about you. But the devil is a liar. He does not have your best interests or safety in mind or heart.

The fact that you tried to take your life twice and it did not work should be proof to you of the fact that God wants you ALIVE! He is not willing to take you back home at this point. You have trials to undergo but they are designed for your further spiritual growth. And those trials may be very hard but you must stay resilient and square your shoulders and say that you are going to meet those trials and pass them and emerge VICTORIOUS because You Can!

God has given each and every person their assignment on earth and that includes such trials as the one you are currently undergoing. That does not mean that God does not love you or that He has forgotten you or abandoned you. It means that He wants for you to use the good mind that He gave to you in order to figure a solution out of this which you can most certainly do. Remember that God would not give you more than you can possibly bear.

God Wants You To Live! God is all about life not death. Death is non-existent in God's world and had it not been for the sin of Adam and Eve mankind would never have to face death. Therefore, look to God in daily prayer and ask Him to take away those evil thoughts of suicide that are not coming from you nor from Him. He will surely assist you in that. And you must be ever-strong my friend! You must not allow yourself to become weak to the point that you cannot function anymore because then Satan wins and God and Jesus Christ will be very disappointed in you. Again, you can emerge Victorious and will be able to solve whatever you are facing. But you must be patient as God works in His own time in His own way and we must all accept that as reality. A person IS as his or her mind THINKS they are! Whenever you embrace the reality that you are loved much more than you care to realize and that life is worth living, at that very moment you will have placed the key into the door that will open to a new horizon filled with beauty and the desire to live.

The devil and his ever evil thoughts have No Power over you since you are God's property! Know and understand that. Whenever demonic thoughts enter your mind about suicide, speak to Jesus and tell Him to remove those thoughts immediately. In the meantime, right after those thoughts arise immediately say:


May God hear your prayers and I will also be praying for you, dear friend Fubario. You are not alone and please know that you are loved much more than you will ever come to realize. Let God's Holy Spirit come into your life and guide you with His Divine presence from this point forward. God bless you always, Fubario, and Keep Your Faith and Belief In God STRONG!


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Though I didn't present the OP, I commend you and thank you for your honesty and care and love toward those who are feeling lost, abandoned. Continue to share your experiences and your knowledge and wisdom.
God bless,
Galahad

God has blessed you with a mom who is still there with you. She stopped you. She loves you. Love is of God. And a loving Mom is the best.

I would beg you Fubario to watch this video. Especially when the darkness closes in:[video=youtube;loiGNZTfu6g]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=loiGNZTfu6g[/video]

God would NEVER tell you that you're going to hell for choosing someone or something you want. Such thoughts are from the devil. we are all tested daily and go through trials..this too shall pass..

1.I feel like God has stolen all my hopes and dreams and crushed them
That is not true, not the way God works or who he is.
2.I don't believe God can save me because He will not do anything
That is a problem because if you don't he will / can then nothing will probably happen
No offenses but this is a Christian Chat, you being a Christian,you have already been saved
3. Please pray for me that God might have a change of mind or heart
God's mind and heart was set from the beginning of time, he loved you then as much as he does now. It is you that need and change in mind and heart towards him.....I am not sure you believe in God or Jesus!

I keep praying, God keeps telling me he doesn't save me, and I know its Him because its like an overwhelming force that I cannot rebuke or control and he changes my life and stuff, and its destroying me. See as I just wrote that its like something in my brain changed and i felt alleviation. I know God condemns people and he even says so that there are the wicked and the just and that there are vessels of wrath and I remember one day I felt like the devil was controlling me and I ran away from home in the morning and I heard God the Father say to me vessels of wrath and stuff and my life has been miserable ever since. I am also experiencing all manner of perversion where its like i fell into a perversion and then God was like doing all this other stuff to me. I keep seeing the image of my dad in my head but its supposed to represent God the Father but he scares me so much, he really does scare me a lot and i have like nothing but oppression.

This is not God telling you that he doesn't/ won't save you. You're hearing the voice of Satan trying to bring you to despair.. Trust that God is with you, and that he has given you power to rebuke the enemy. Repent any sins you have and ask him to come in you and live..

I can't, its not me and its just this father figure, I cannot rebuke it, its in control of me, in control of my heart, i figure i know what Job went through, this constant torment, i am all physically ill and sore, now what.

He even tells me things like my jealousy and then its like I made a vow of celibacy and then hes like nope you are going to marry, then hes like you are Job, but then hes like I condemn you for marrying or something, or he says you betray me or something, and I plead with Him and ask Him to save me but he says no I can't or something along those lines, and he says all this stuff. I just wanted a blessed life, a good life but apparently i cannot have that. He also said I blasphemed Him when trying to pursue someone and then he says to go with another person, but then I hear no its Jill which is not really her real name and all these random stuff. Now he says to hate me, its like God purposefully wants me to hate Him, but I cannot, I just cannot, but I fear that He will do it, he will take my faith away and make me into an unbeliever. He can cause anyone to do anything and who can stop Him? No one can stop Him.