I've been through a little bit of what you have, not a lot, but those parts are only beginning to be resolved. Certain people will never come near me again and for that I am thankful. I know I want it in the past, and for me, that doesn't mean forgetting what happened, or happily standing in the same room as that person.
It means I'm always going to remember it, but I'm not going to let it hold me back. I'm not going to try and forget, because it's unforgettable, and trying to do so will ultimately fail. Instead, I'm going to go on with my life. I think when I finally put this in the past, it will look like me standing up to the ignorant jokes and comments made about these subjects, not thinking every guy/man has ulterior motives, and eventually, not being so scared of anyone's touch. That's what it will look like for me. That's the place I want to be in one day.
For now, my advice to you and me is to talk. I talk becasue I know the more I say it, the less it hurts. Last week, I was crying for hours after saying something for the first time. Now, if I avoid certain words, I can mostly hold myself together. I want to be at peace with this.