I have recently been thru some life changing events....it's almost hard to believe even for me. And I won't give you the whole story even, but I have been living my life like many others...The beautiful wife, my three beautiful Boy's...a Job working for the local school district For over thirty years...and for the last thirteen years I have let my Jesus sit in the closet, along with my dusty Bible. You see I am now on my second tour of duty with God. I had given my life to God early at the age of eleven. And was living a good christian life until 15 years into our marriage.Our marriage was tested in our faith, at that point....we began looking at our needs more than the conclusion God had made about those needs...we stopped Tithing, we began to let family events distract us from our regular church attendance, even the ministry I had in our church became a road block to our own family time....I will say this was more my wife"s test than mine...but my test was would I lead our family back to Gods will or will I allow my wife's strong personality win the day? well, at that time I had boughten satan's half-lie.....,.. no need to create a argument with my wife,...Satan even tossed in the verse talking about Husbands love your wives like Christ loved the church..Satan wanted me to believe by allowing her to rule the day I was loving her and allowing her grace..even tho she was wrong.. so I let her rule the day..That day turned into thirteen years..and our once blessed marriage now had a crack in it..and as we BOTH continued to disobey God, that crack got even larger. She went on to "Self-improve" , I went on to "Self-loath"..I'll admit Her reaction was prettier than mine, she started running religiously, ate the paleo diet, she even had more faith in faith than I did.....but she had replaced God , as center of her life, with "Morality". And as charming as morality is, it has a different spirit...the spirit of "unconditional love", we once had, now was replaced with "Judgement". And our kid's even adopted that premise. I dug into my work, and loved my kids and family the best I could...but I found myself becoming more isolated..I couldn't go their direction into Morality exclusively because I knew That life was hopeless. Yet the life I wanted In christ I felt powerless to change into... so ashamed , I sulked....Then June of 2014 my wife asked for a Divorce, I was crushed. I fell into deep depression and despair...while she became even more antagonistic..then Oct. 1st 2014, after a [we'll call it a disagreement] with my wife, I found myself sleeping on my cold concrete floor in my Garage, with nothing but a free-weight piece for a pillow ..I had hit rock bottom..and God came to me and whispered to me "Why are you holding on to your despair with such white knuckles?....Let GO!...and hold onto me instead for I have plans to prosper you , not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"...His unconditional love broke me like a twig....tears, confession, praise gushed out of me like a broken water balloon, and I ended up standing a NEW MAN! I went from there knowing I had a choice....do I do things under my control, peter out and fail? Or do I believe God when He says.."The battle is His?"..well since then I claim God as head of my helm...Christ runs this ship..but I still have needs now that need to be met. And this is where my prayer request comes in....because of a fall at work where I fell two floors 28 ft. off a ladder and had multiple surgeries and injuries..I have been pronounced 40% disabled...that now causes me to lose my current job with the school...And due to the only 40% disabled labelling they will not pay disability, that would take 51% or better on the disability label...so I am needing a new job, due to the divorce, I have lost my house..and with no job I need someone to accept me in the housing world..I am working on the "vocational training re-school- start- over- gig" but I will have many issues coming up immediately..Pray for me to get a job quickly .If God wasn't with me in all this I would be a mess. But I am not a mess. I have joy like I have never had it before. God has overcome my life and as I continue to mature My walk with Him is more intense than my first tour -of- duty with God....thank you for your prayers...I believe where two or more are gathered there He is also so I have faith your prayers will help me...thanks again. And may God bless each and everyone of you.
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