thats not actually what i was thinking of when i typed it, but yes, When you really want to be free from something, sometimes you must go to extreme mesures, but all of this i dont know, i cant do it unless this this and this happens or i cant do it until i have this or that.. Doesnt sound like you want it bad enough to be free. I had an addiction for ten years. I finally had to get to the point where i literally ran stuff over in my to get rid of certain things, i went to 12 step programs was constantly in the word of god, and did the settingcaptivesfree website, and i can say whom the father sets free is free indeed!