I pray your service is blessed, Roxxyroller! See you later.
We have a service tonight at 7:00pm. I'm kinda anxious a bit because our pastor said he's gonna show a few clips from the movie, "The Passion" to accompany his message.
Last Sunday's service he talked about Jesus praying in the garden of Gethsemane and the agony of what he went through for us. Then he showed a clip of that movie where Barabbas looked into Jesus' eyes right after he was released from prison. But it was the tangled mess of Jesus' face that broke my heart. The tech guy paused the movie and the Lord's beaten face was on the screen for some time and I couldn't stop sobbing and gasping for breath at the thought of what they really did to Him. They finally turned off the projector and I could breathe again.
I had a vision long ago while having a pity-party and crying out to God about my wants. With my face pressed into my pillow sobbing on my bed, I heard somebody grunting in pain. I heard thumps, too like someone was being beaten. Their was awful moans of distress and abusive sounds that made my blood run cold. I lifted my head and saw in my spirit Jesus bent over and twisted with blood running down all over and His beautiful hair drenched in blood and his lips broken and He turned to look at me. With love in his swollen eyes. I repented and didn't want that worthless thing I had been praying for before that vision. I never wanted that thing again.
I know the Lord is High and Lifted Up on His Throne even now, surrounded with a multitude of angelic hosts singing out His name and giving Him glory! I know I'd fall down in awe and fear and amazement if I were to see that with my earthly eyes right now. I know Jesus Christ is Mighty Warrior and the Great IAM forever and can subdue anything and anyone with His Spirit of Power and Glory. He is GOD.
And still I can't hold it together whenever I remember I am Barabbas and Jesus took my place. I'm so grateful. I hope I don't fall apart in church tonight.