Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[penknight]

I kinda just had a dr. Jekyll and mr. Hyde moment. A lot of times I try to suppress my emotions because I hate feeling worldy, I don't like feeling like "those people". I've created this kind of mental rule wherever I'm feeling something that I don't want to feel, I have to filp a "switch". Once I've flipped the switch everything goes numb. I've gotten so good at it than when turn the switch on I almost don't feel a single thing, and I can do whatever I want without feeling hung up about it till later.

But just a moment ago I suddenly felt a short sharp rush of those same feelings I tried to make myself avoid. The scary part is I think I enjoyed it a little. In that split second, I felt almost completely different, as if my own spirit wanted to rebel against me, not against God, just me. It made me want to push back against it. It was scary, but now I just feel numb toward it.

 

[penknight]

I kinda just had a dr. Jekyll and mr. Hyde moment. A lot of times I try to suppress my emotions because I hate feeling worldy, I don't like feeling like "those people". I've created this kind of mental rule wherever I'm feeling something that I don't want to feel, I have to filp a "switch". Once I've flipped the switch everything goes numb. I've gotten so good at it than when turn the switch on I almost don't feel a single thing, and I can do whatever I want without feeling hung up about it till later.

But just a moment ago I suddenly felt a short sharp rush of those same feelings I tried to make myself avoid. The scary part is I think I enjoyed it a little. In that split second, I felt almost completely different, as if my own spirit wanted to rebel against me, not against God, just me. It made me want to push back against it. It was scary, but now I just feel numb toward it.

Maybe my sinful nature was just looking for some breathing room.

 

[cinder]

I kinda just had a dr. Jekyll and mr. Hyde moment. A lot of times I try to suppress my emotions because I hate feeling worldy, I don't like feeling like "those people". I've created this kind of mental rule wherever I'm feeling something that I don't want to feel, I have to filp a "switch". Once I've flipped the switch everything goes numb. I've gotten so good at it than when turn the switch on I almost don't feel a single thing, and I can do whatever I want without feeling hung up about it till later.

But just a moment ago I suddenly felt a short sharp rush of those same feelings I tried to make myself avoid. The scary part is I think I enjoyed it a little. In that split second, I felt almost completely different, as if my own spirit wanted to rebel against me, not against God, just me. It made me want to push back against it. It was scary, but now I just feel numb toward it.

Uh. Since when does feeling emotion make you worldly? I can understand the advantage of being able to put your emotions aside when you have to deal with unpleasant immediate reality and make good decisions, but it's important to understand your emotions and not ignore them. Bury too many of them and they tend to erupt in nasty ways down the road.

 

[penknight]

Uh. Since when does feeling emotion make you worldly? I can understand the advantage of being able to put your emotions aside when you have to deal with unpleasant immediate reality and make good decisions, but it's important to understand your emotions and not ignore them. Bury too many of them and they tend to erupt in nasty ways down the road.

Please don't do that, I'm not trying to start something stupid. I meant like worldy sinful people. It's difficult to describe my feelings

 

[Tintin]

Please don't do that, I'm not trying to start something stupid. I meant like worldy sinful people. It's difficult to describe my feelings

Hey, brother. It's all good. Cinder is trying to help. No harm done.

 

[gypsygirl]

Please don't do that, I'm not trying to start something stupid. I meant like worldy sinful people. It's difficult to describe my feelings

so what you're describing is temptation, or emotional feelings that are pulling you towards sin?

i am genuinely trying to follow what you're sharing. : )

and like tintin said, i do think what cinder shared was both true and with intention of being helpful.

 

[penknight]

Hey, brother. It's all good. Cinder is trying to help. No harm done.

I know that, but you a sentence like this: "Uh. Since when does feeling emotion make you worldly? " people tend to automatically get defensive. And wasn't trying to offend anybody, all I was trying to do was record my thoughts here like everyone else. I didn't mean to cause any misunderstanding.

 

[Tintin]

I know that, but you a sentence like this: "Uh. Since when does feeling emotion make you worldly? " people tend to automatically get defensive. And wasn't trying to offend anybody, all I was trying to do was record my thoughts here like everyone else. I didn't mean to cause any misunderstanding.

No worries, I understand something of what you're saying. That said, I don't believe anyone is offended by what you've said. I pray you find God's peace in the matter. After all, Jesus Christ is the Prince of Peace. Learning to rest in Him is so important.

 

[penknight]

Let just change the subject. What do guys think about the effects pets have on their owners? Like the link between cats and neurosis?

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

I KNEW cat owners were neurotic!

 

[zeroturbulence]

I kinda just had a dr. Jekyll and mr. Hyde moment. A lot of times I try to suppress my emotions because I hate feeling worldy, I don't like feeling like "those people". I've created this kind of mental rule wherever I'm feeling something that I don't want to feel, I have to filp a "switch". Once I've flipped the switch everything goes numb. I've gotten so good at it than when turn the switch on I almost don't feel a single thing, and I can do whatever I want without feeling hung up about it till later.

But just a moment ago I suddenly felt a short sharp rush of those same feelings I tried to make myself avoid. The scary part is I think I enjoyed it a little. In that split second, I felt almost completely different, as if my own spirit wanted to rebel against me, not against God, just me. It made me want to push back against it. It was scary, but now I just feel numb toward it.

I wish I could flip a switch on my emotions like that.

 

[zeroturbulence]

I can never figure out people who put their dogs in those highly competitive dog shows. I mean they actually breed these dogs to be perfect and they go to extremes when it comes to grooming and training them. Its nice to own a beautiful dog but these things are more challenging than beauty contests!

And they're just dogs.. they're not horses or tigers or whatever.. they go around sniffing each other's backsides!

 

[cinder]

Wait I thought we were talking about how owning cats makes people neurotic.

 

[zeroturbulence]

Too bad. I like cats. Hmm maybe that's why I'm so neurotic..

 

[zeroturbulence]

Better to be neurotic than erotic.

 

[gypsygirl]

one of the most disturbing things i've read about is the connection between cat feces and mental illness.

from what i've read, those who have cats who are allowed to go outside are at the highest risk.

Better to be neurotic than erotic.

hahaahaha... i guess being in the singles forum, i get that. : ) thankfully, there's nothing wrong with expressing erotic love inside of marriage.

and God willing, i'm looking forward to that stage of my life when it arrives. : )

 

[wwjd_kilden]

one of the most disturbing things i've read about is the connection between cat feces and mental illness.

from what i've read, those who have cats who are allowed to go outside are at the highest risk.

oooh, so that's why I'm crazy

 

[Roh_Chris]

one of the most disturbing things i've read about is the connection between cat feces and mental illness.

from what i've read, those who have cats who are allowed to go outside are at the highest risk.

Pardon my curiosity, but shouldn't you be asleep now? O_O

Anyways... Cats repel me. This is another reason why the world should get rid of cats.

What? This thread is supposed to be non-judgmental, right?

 

[gypsygirl]

Hey everyone,

I made this request in another thread but wanted to post here too because so many of my regular CC buddies hang out here.

My dad is having major back surgery today. He's had more treatments, procedures, and surgeries than I have fingers and toes to count them all.

I'm nervous.

I know I shouldn't be, and that people will tell me to have faith... But he's my dad.

If anyone has time to say a prayer for him, I'd be most a appreciative. Thank you much!!!

Love you all, K.

hi kim, your dad, along with you and your entire family have been on my mind and prayers today.

please let us know how things went and give us an update when you have a chance.

thanks!

 

[gypsygirl]

Pardon my curiosity, but shouldn't you be asleep now? O_O

Anyways... Cats repel me. This is another reason why the world should get rid of cats.



What? This thread is supposed to be non-judgmental, right?

hahaahaaha, i'm not a cat person either. i mean, i can appreciate other's cats, but i'm definitely a dog person when it comes to pets.

yeah, i should probably be asleep. unfortunately troubled sleeper would be an underestimation for me. luckily, i work for myself, and so i can accommodate some of my sporadic and goofy sleep schedule by sleeping around my meeting schedule and work when i'm feeling inspired and being productive. : )

thanks for your concern, chris. and thanks for being such a positive and pleasant force in the forum: D *pats chris' head*