See this is why most people don't talk or are involved with Christians. They base all their life and feelings towards an imaginary person. And then you act like those who don't agree are trolls.
See that's where you're wrong, and also where everything always gets so sticky. God is not imaginary, He is more real than anything in this fake, deceptive, illusionary world. I absolutely agree that you may have been born with the attractions you have, and have a huge list of attractions to things against God's rules myself, like we ALL do. We are ALL born broken. The biggest misconception, in my opinion, is that YOU are to change it yourself to join the "Christian social club". I saw it that way for at least 5 years before He really saved me. See that's what becoming a Christian really is, it is coming to a place that you submit your self totally to His will while believing that Jesus died on the cross to pay the debt to God for your transgressions, and then the Holy Spirit comes into you regenerating you, ripping the veil removing all doubt that He is, and Jesus is the ONLY Truth. You don’t change yourself, He changes you and He works in each one of us personally and individually. What you think Christianity is, is just what this world has told you it is, to find out the Truth you have to go deep and ask Him directly. I personally love you brother, and if I can help you in any way, with questions, or my own testimony of how I was brought into Truth please don’t hesitate to ask. I’m sure there are others here willing to do the same as well. I am glad you’re here though, and feel there’s a reason for it.