In the trenches as a worker of God I can still let the cost of service distract me. But, the second I lean off center, God reassures me that I am of no worth, so I am not under attack. He goes on to love me in a special way thru the Spirit of worship and He claims me to Himself in that moment, telling me, "You are of no worth, but you are of great value to me personally, and I want you to do things for me, for I trust you, and I love you...and I commission you. So suck it up, Slave [Dan] my Son, for I am with you to the ends of the earth, the pain you feel is not yours to bear, both in the affairs of mens contention over my Word, nor over the attack of Satan thru mens demeanor." He goes on to tell me, "There is a cost, I want you to know it is there, and it is real, and i will not let it break you... pick up the cross and follow me for in time you will be rewarded,... rewarded, Dan, in a way you cannot imagine yet!" Stay faithful to my Word, and lean not toward your experiences of the old self but upon My Spirit of life and purpose and value."
After those moments you would think I would get better at accepting the cost of service for the Lord, and begin to stop falling into the hurt of others and myself in such activities, And you would be absolutely right! Do I have human influences, yes....but they are not my way any longer no matter how loud the voice of human reason speaks. The Gospel of God is my life now not common sense.
" God keep me in this place-- now, later today, tonight, and thru the night and into the next day and into the next week, month, year, give me all of you Father, one day at a time ...and the death of me , let it be framed very close for me to see ...In Jesus name ...Amen!" "Thank you Lord Jesus Christ!""