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Thebo55man
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I asked Jesus into my heart eight years ago but I didn't feel anything. I recently started a new church and became committed. Although I now realize I may have dead faith. I'm only obeying because I don't want to go to hell. I don't feel an emotional connection with Jesus. I never really have. But I want to be a true Christian. I want to obey out of love for him. I mean, I think I want to. A part of me is saying deep down inside I'm just selfish and want to save my skin no matter what I try to say. The only way I can obey out of love is if the Holy Spirit grants it. I can't do it myself.
I've been praying about this for a long time, I even poured out my heart out at the altar last night praying to God to give me that love for him so I can be a true child of God. And on that same night one of our church members said that the youth needed a new fire in their hearts for God.. or something along the lines of that. (I'm apart of the youth) I thought that would be the answer to my prayer, but after the group prayer in front of the whole church, I still didn't get that desire or feeling. I mean, I understand it might not happen over night. But I still worry. Why is God keeping this from me? I can feel my faith shrinking over time. Some people might tell me to get back on track and obey again but how can I if its not out of love for Christ?
I've been in constant worry and doubt because of this for at least a month and a half now. I just don't know what to do anymore. I mean, Jesus loves me and wants to get to know me...so there's still hope, right?
(By the way, sorry if this is in the wrong category. I'm a young man so I put this in the Christian Young Adults forum.)
I've been praying about this for a long time, I even poured out my heart out at the altar last night praying to God to give me that love for him so I can be a true child of God. And on that same night one of our church members said that the youth needed a new fire in their hearts for God.. or something along the lines of that. (I'm apart of the youth) I thought that would be the answer to my prayer, but after the group prayer in front of the whole church, I still didn't get that desire or feeling. I mean, I understand it might not happen over night. But I still worry. Why is God keeping this from me? I can feel my faith shrinking over time. Some people might tell me to get back on track and obey again but how can I if its not out of love for Christ?
I've been in constant worry and doubt because of this for at least a month and a half now. I just don't know what to do anymore. I mean, Jesus loves me and wants to get to know me...so there's still hope, right?
(By the way, sorry if this is in the wrong category. I'm a young man so I put this in the Christian Young Adults forum.)