My name is Jacquelyn, my middle name is Rae and it is not a ray like a drop of golden sun.
I really want to one day go to culinary school to learn the ins and outs of pastries and my one dream is to have a shop where I can sell small cakes, cupcakes, brownies and fudge...also great coffee and sandwiches like paninis. Basically, a place where people can come in and feel a great aesthetic and stare at their laptops all day, or into the eyes of their sweet french lover *sigh*.
I do not really have 'relationships' with any of my family members and my family is very disconnected and broken. I feel that God intended for it to be like that so that I would be broken at a young age and depend on him. I don't see a future with my family. I am basically a loner, WOOOOO.
I often feel like a lazy idealist stuck in a world of coventionalism and curses from generations before.
I live every day like it is the last day of the world. I know that sounds weird, but I believe it is biblical. I have dreams for this life but I see them as nothing because I know we are living in the last days.
It is difficult for me to believe in the promises of God or that God wants to bless me. Although, he does every single day, and I believe that God wants to humble me in this life to realize as little as the miracle of running water coming out of my sink in the morning as him blessing me.
I want to be one of those crazy animal people that has like 10 random animals living on their property, ex. peacocks, ferrets, hedgehogs, and random animals that normally do not pair up as teams, but eventually will because I will have them trained by a animal whisperers, or the government.....jk...
in my mind it would be more like the matrix, except there would be feathers flying everywhere and all the llamas will be trying to eat my hair.
I have a youtube channel but I feel like it is pointless so I never post anything
I will one day use it to talk about faith and other topics, but right nao it just chills there.
I hear coyotes, they are going to get murdered by the blood moons.
I don't like sweetened tea because it makes me feel fat and dehydrated.
The end.