Interesting how people have come to the conclusion it's not your fault.
Forget about loving your husband, that is not required of you.
Do you RESPECT your husband? Does your tongue remain civil during arguments or do you use it to belittle him? Do you obey him in matters that do not explicitly contradict the Word of God? Would you as Sarah did, call him lord or do you laugh at the mere question?
Men need respect, and women are being inundated with worldly messages to disrespect all men, especially husbands. I suggest you try this website: loveandrespect.com
I am 30 years happily married because I taught my wife who was 18 (when we married I was 22) this fact. It is what the Bible says, and most Christian councilors ignore the Bible. A man's most common defense from the verbal abuse of a wife is to withdraw, else he is temted to become physical and that is NOT acceptable. Read Song ofSongs. When the wife did not wish to get up for her husband's call, what did he do? He left, and then she went looking.
Western culture is as wrong on marriage on one side as Islam is wrong to the opposite side. The Bible should be your guide, and in the Bible BOTH genders are totally corrupt.