For a while now, I have been battling with loneliness and a sense of abandonment. It was from when I lost ties with my close friend. I felt alone and forgotten. I tried to ignore it. Tried to distract myself from thinking about it.
But, no matter how hard I tried. The feeling of being alone always eventually came back. It was so bad that I was hesitant to being social with people. For fear I would get burned again. I would lose again. Though it took a while. What God wanted to tell me had finally clicked. I was never alone. He was always with me through and through. The world could completely turn it's back on you, but no matter what. God will never abandon you.
I guess I never saw it sooner because I was too distracted by the problem and didn't want to listen to the solution. I wouldn't wish that feeling on my worst enemy. That feeling of rejection and being alone. That's a level of hurt that is never easy to heal from.