Hopelessly depressed.

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Kgurl77

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Hi everyone,
I just want to introduce myself a little and perhaps explain.
I found this site in search of someone who I could talk to. My relationship with God isn't very strong as I am weak. I have found the motivation to read the Bible every day (if I don't forget) and I started viewing the world and everything in it differently, as in how God would want me, and all of us, to see things.
So I recently opened up to him again, and I couldn't be more happy about this. But I feel as though I am being tested.
You see, depression has got me on its hook. I cannot understand what the cause of this is. Loneliness, maybe? I have been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week (it started on Sunday) and I pray to him every time that he would send me someone, or do as he sees fit. In the very least, I pray, that he shows me what I have done wrong or what he wants me to learn from this. I have been fighting with depression since the eighth grade. I am 17 now. I fell off the wagon oh so many times. There were the low points in my life when I told myself that I should stop fighting for this faith. Luckily, Jesus never stopped knocking. I know I can trust him with everything, but I just feel so hopeless. I read the Bible in search of an answer, a sign, a piece of hope. I obviously find a lot of it, as the Bible is a big chunk of love. But every time I'm alone and unoccupied the sadness creeps in. Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I can't do anything but blame myself. I try to find a reason or a past action of mine that could have set this off, but I honestly don't know where to start.
Is it a phase? Is it a longing for love? Is it a test of Gods? A test of my strength and faith? I don't waver in believing that God's the one and only way out of this life.

I guess that this is it. If it's not too much, I ask you to pray for me. The power of prayer is amazing, I'm sure you'd agree. And if you are having the same or similar problems to mine, I'd be glad to listen and perhaps exchange thoughts.
Thank you :)
 
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Tinuviel

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Oh, of course I'll pray for you!

Maybe this test is from God to make you rely on Him instead of people? I don't know, but rest assured, it has a purpose even if you never know what it is!

I would be more than happy to talk to you any time I'm on, I cannot PM, but we could talk in one of the chatrooms, the Teen room is almost always empty, we could set a time and go there to chat sometime if you want. :)
 
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allaboutlove

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I belive This depression your experienceing is an attack from the enemy if you are trying to get your self right with God again than the devil will try everything he can to keep that from happening... Remember the enemy only wants to steal, kill, an destroy and it sounds like right know he is stealing your joy.. But do not be afraid because the one who lives inside of you is greater than he who lives in the world.... Reading your bible every day is a great way to help keep the enemy at bay and so is prayer but as long as you are trying to do the right thing he will try to stop you but you must stay strong and continue to fight the good fight but don't try to fight it alone remember God is always with you even in the lonely places. And now that you have found this sight you can come here whenever the fight gets tough and I personally along with many others here I'm sure will help you get through.
 
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N2319

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You bet i'll be praying for you! I actually have depression very similar to the circumstances you've described. I'm on this site to get some hope and encouragement to. It's really brave of you to open up like this! You are not alone. Ever. Feel free to PM me anytime
 
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Kgurl77

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Thank you :) I could use an open ear lately.
 
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wwjd_kilden

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Will pray

If it doesn't go away in another week or to, talk to your GP and see if he can get you an appointment with a therapist,
sometimes we just need someone to help us a bit.
 
blue_ladybug

blue_ladybug

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kgurl, I want you to read my depression thread in my signature below. You want to see the power of God to pull someone up out of depression? Read my threads. :) They have helped many, many people here. N2319, please read my depression thread also. My pm is always open to you both.
 
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Kgurl77

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I will thank you :)
 
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Ultimatum77

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You're not alone, I know what it's like to feel lonely and like no one cares if you drop. My advice is I would suggest praying more, the depression will pass, as God's presence strengthens you. I would also recommend praising God with good worship music. It uplifts the soul and changes the atmosphere around you. Not to mention God inhabits the praises of His people. So if you want to feel close to God again, worshiping God is a good tool to use. If you need to talk about anything feel free to pm me or the older members of this forum. They are very helpful..But also be careful for trolls :rolleyes:
 
PennEd

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Kgurl77 said:
Hi everyone,
I just want to introduce myself a little and perhaps explain.
I found this site in search of someone who I could talk to. My relationship with God isn't very strong as I am weak. I have found the motivation to read the Bible every day (if I don't forget) and I started viewing the world and everything in it differently, as in how God would want me, and all of us, to see things.
So I recently opened up to him again, and I couldn't be more happy about this. But I feel as though I am being tested.
You see, depression has got me on its hook. I cannot understand what the cause of this is. Loneliness, maybe? I have been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week (it started on Sunday) and I pray to him every time that he would send me someone, or do as he sees fit. In the very least, I pray, that he shows me what I have done wrong or what he wants me to learn from this. I have been fighting with depression since the eighth grade. I am 17 now. I fell off the wagon oh so many times. There were the low points in my life when I told myself that I should stop fighting for this faith. Luckily, Jesus never stopped knocking. I know I can trust him with everything, but I just feel so hopeless. I read the Bible in search of an answer, a sign, a piece of hope. I obviously find a lot of it, as the Bible is a big chunk of love. But every time I'm alone and unoccupied the sadness creeps in. Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I can't do anything but blame myself. I try to find a reason or a past action of mine that could have set this off, but I honestly don't know where to start.
Is it a phase? Is it a longing for love? Is it a test of Gods? A test of my strength and faith? I don't waver in believing that God's the one and only way out of this life.

I guess that this is it. If it's not too much, I ask you to pray for me. The power of prayer is amazing, I'm sure you'd agree. And if you are having the same or similar problems to mine, I'd be glad to listen and perhaps exchange thoughts.
Thank you :)
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My heart breaks to hear of your pain. I don't have any quick, easy answers. I will only say that MANY of us have been down the road you are on, BUT IT DOES GET BETTER! Try and focus on the FACT that you are dearly loved by a Father that went to such incredible lengths to save you. Comfort yourself in the knowledge that He will work ALL things for your good and His Glory.

Dear sweet Father, we lift up this young lady to You, and ask that You would show Your mighty hand to her and let her feel Your glorious presence. In Jesus name I pray.
 
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Kgurl77

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Thank you so much for that advice! I haven't been in touch with my singing and after reading this I sat down at the piano and sang a few songs and my spirits have been lifted :D
 
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Ultimatum77

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Kgurl77 said:
Thank you so much for that advice! I haven't been in touch with my singing and after reading this I sat down at the piano and sang a few songs and my spirits have been lifted :D
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That's awesome, I do the same thing to uplift my spirit. Nothing like some worship songs to make everything better....
 
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pwrnJC

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Kgurl77...I praise GOD that you truely believe in the power of prayer. And, that being so....it means that you have to ACT upon that belief. So many are concerned and are praying for you and they can relate. However, the CURE is the reversal. JESUS would want His own to be happy, full of HIS spirit, and ready for ACTION! He promises us LIFE and more abundantly..starting now...not when you decide to get over depression. I see depression as a tool that old satan enjoys using to keep us defeated. The joy of the LORD is our strength..NO joy, no strength...plain and simple. The power of the Holy Spirit can change your depressive attitude. Keep in mind that GOD inhabits the praises of HIS people...and since you are one of His peoples....when was the last time you used praise or gave HIM praise? When you praise, get ready to make room for HIS presence...Depression has to step aside.....it has to...otherwise, JESUS would be a liar. Abundant life is for you! Our enemy is full of lies and confusion.....you have to rise above this depression that you claim has you under it's power. You have a higher, greater POWER within yourself. Behold, the KINGDOM of GOD is within YOU....where there is GOD..there is NO depression and no darkness...CLAIM IT, live by it and move forth in VICTORY, sister!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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JustWhoIAm

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Kgurl77 said:
The power of prayer is amazing, I'm sure you'd agree. And if you are having the same or similar problems to mine, I'd be glad to listen and perhaps exchange thoughts.
Thank you :)
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I can relate. I can also share what works for me.

Remember to thank him every day no matter how hard it gets.

Not as a servant to a king, but as a loving child to a wonderful father. He loves hearing it.

"Thank you, Daddy!"
 
RoseRed

RoseRed

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Hey, it would be hard for you to have been anywhere worse than some of the places ive been in my mind. Please feel free to reach out to me to talk anytime you see me online ok?
 
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Kgurl77 said:
Hi everyone,
I just want to introduce myself a little and perhaps explain.
I found this site in search of someone who I could talk to. My relationship with God isn't very strong as I am weak. I have found the motivation to read the Bible every day (if I don't forget) and I started viewing the world and everything in it differently, as in how God would want me, and all of us, to see things.
So I recently opened up to him again, and I couldn't be more happy about this. But I feel as though I am being tested.
You see, depression has got me on its hook. I cannot understand what the cause of this is. Loneliness, maybe? I have been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week (it started on Sunday) and I pray to him every time that he would send me someone, or do as he sees fit. In the very least, I pray, that he shows me what I have done wrong or what he wants me to learn from this. I have been fighting with depression since the eighth grade. I am 17 now. I fell off the wagon oh so many times. There were the low points in my life when I told myself that I should stop fighting for this faith. Luckily, Jesus never stopped knocking. I know I can trust him with everything, but I just feel so hopeless. I read the Bible in search of an answer, a sign, a piece of hope. I obviously find a lot of it, as the Bible is a big chunk of love. But every time I'm alone and unoccupied the sadness creeps in. Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I can't do anything but blame myself. I try to find a reason or a past action of mine that could have set this off, but I honestly don't know where to start.
Is it a phase? Is it a longing for love? Is it a test of Gods? A test of my strength and faith? I don't waver in believing that God's the one and only way out of this life.

I guess that this is it. If it's not too much, I ask you to pray for me. The power of prayer is amazing, I'm sure you'd agree. And if you are having the same or similar problems to mine, I'd be glad to listen and perhaps exchange thoughts.
Thank you :)
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Find a routine. Make your bed in the morning. Clean your room. Go do the dishes for mom. Clean the toilets. I'm not kidding, a routine will lift you out of a funk.
 
Demi777

Demi777

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Kgurl77 said:
Hi everyone,
I just want to introduce myself a little and perhaps explain.
I found this site in search of someone who I could talk to. My relationship with God isn't very strong as I am weak. I have found the motivation to read the Bible every day (if I don't forget) and I started viewing the world and everything in it differently, as in how God would want me, and all of us, to see things.
So I recently opened up to him again, and I couldn't be more happy about this. But I feel as though I am being tested.
You see, depression has got me on its hook. I cannot understand what the cause of this is. Loneliness, maybe? I have been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week (it started on Sunday) and I pray to him every time that he would send me someone, or do as he sees fit. In the very least, I pray, that he shows me what I have done wrong or what he wants me to learn from this. I have been fighting with depression since the eighth grade. I am 17 now. I fell off the wagon oh so many times. There were the low points in my life when I told myself that I should stop fighting for this faith. Luckily, Jesus never stopped knocking. I know I can trust him with everything, but I just feel so hopeless. I read the Bible in search of an answer, a sign, a piece of hope. I obviously find a lot of it, as the Bible is a big chunk of love. But every time I'm alone and unoccupied the sadness creeps in. Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I can't do anything but blame myself. I try to find a reason or a past action of mine that could have set this off, but I honestly don't know where to start.
Is it a phase? Is it a longing for love? Is it a test of Gods? A test of my strength and faith? I don't waver in believing that God's the one and only way out of this life.

I guess that this is it. If it's not too much, I ask you to pray for me. The power of prayer is amazing, I'm sure you'd agree. And if you are having the same or similar problems to mine, I'd be glad to listen and perhaps exchange thoughts.
Thank you :)
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Imma go german on you.

Du bist Gott wichtig, Gott liebt dich aber nicht nur er.
Jesaja 40:31
aber die auf den HERRN harren, kriegen neue Kraft, dass sie auffahren mit Flügelnwie Adler, dass sie laufen und nicht matt werden, dass sie wandeln und nicht müde werden.

Hoffe auf unseren Herrn schwesterherz. Er wird dich tragen und ich geb dir da drauf eine 100% Garantie
 
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integerlost

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Kgurl77 said:
Hi everyone,
I just want to introduce myself a little and perhaps explain.
I found this site in search of someone who I could talk to. My relationship with God isn't very strong as I am weak. I have found the motivation to read the Bible every day (if I don't forget) and I started viewing the world and everything in it differently, as in how God would want me, and all of us, to see things.
So I recently opened up to him again, and I couldn't be more happy about this. But I feel as though I am being tested.
You see, depression has got me on its hook. I cannot understand what the cause of this is. Loneliness, maybe? I have been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week (it started on Sunday) and I pray to him every time that he would send me someone, or do as he sees fit. In the very least, I pray, that he shows me what I have done wrong or what he wants me to learn from this. I have been fighting with depression since the eighth grade. I am 17 now. I fell off the wagon oh so many times. There were the low points in my life when I told myself that I should stop fighting for this faith. Luckily, Jesus never stopped knocking. I know I can trust him with everything, but I just feel so hopeless. I read the Bible in search of an answer, a sign, a piece of hope. I obviously find a lot of it, as the Bible is a big chunk of love. But every time I'm alone and unoccupied the sadness creeps in. Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I can't do anything but blame myself. I try to find a reason or a past action of mine that could have set this off, but I honestly don't know where to start.
Is it a phase? Is it a longing for love? Is it a test of Gods? A test of my strength and faith? I don't waver in believing that God's the one and only way out of this life.

I guess that this is it. If it's not too much, I ask you to pray for me. The power of prayer is amazing, I'm sure you'd agree. And if you are having the same or similar problems to mine, I'd be glad to listen and perhaps exchange thoughts.
Thank you :)
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I'll tell you how to do deal with loneliness. Don't look for positives and negatives in your relationships. Look for what you can learn from the relationships you have.
 
DallasChristian14

DallasChristian14

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I've been there before and I'm praying for you! I am here for ya if you need someone to talk to. God bless!
 
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integerlost

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Kgurl77 said:
Hi everyone,
I just want to introduce myself a little and perhaps explain.
I found this site in search of someone who I could talk to. My relationship with God isn't very strong as I am weak. I have found the motivation to read the Bible every day (if I don't forget) and I started viewing the world and everything in it differently, as in how God would want me, and all of us, to see things.
So I recently opened up to him again, and I couldn't be more happy about this. But I feel as though I am being tested.
You see, depression has got me on its hook. I cannot understand what the cause of this is. Loneliness, maybe? I have been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week (it started on Sunday) and I pray to him every time that he would send me someone, or do as he sees fit. In the very least, I pray, that he shows me what I have done wrong or what he wants me to learn from this. I have been fighting with depression since the eighth grade. I am 17 now. I fell off the wagon oh so many times. There were the low points in my life when I told myself that I should stop fighting for this faith. Luckily, Jesus never stopped knocking. I know I can trust him with everything, but I just feel so hopeless. I read the Bible in search of an answer, a sign, a piece of hope. I obviously find a lot of it, as the Bible is a big chunk of love. But every time I'm alone and unoccupied the sadness creeps in. Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I can't do anything but blame myself. I try to find a reason or a past action of mine that could have set this off, but I honestly don't know where to start.
Is it a phase? Is it a longing for love? Is it a test of Gods? A test of my strength and faith? I don't waver in believing that God's the one and only way out of this life.

I guess that this is it. If it's not too much, I ask you to pray for me. The power of prayer is amazing, I'm sure you'd agree. And if you are having the same or similar problems to mine, I'd be glad to listen and perhaps exchange thoughts.
Thank you :)
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Basically you're gorging on the wrong emotions, it's very emoish behaviour.
Trying to be happy or strong for God only ends in more depression. He always tells me to be soft like water.

Listen to Bruce Lee

You must be shapeless, formless, like water. When you pour water in a cup, it becomes the cup. When you pour water in a bottle, it becomes the bottle. When you pour water in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Water can drip and it can crash. Become like water my friend.

And you know God loves water.
 
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