I just saw this. I've been busy babysitting my grandchildren, just got home last night.
I'm very sorry you are leaving, you were a kind and respectful person, who genuinely was interested in learning the gospel. I'm sorry that you didn't find what you were looking for.
Just remember, although you didn't find what you were looking for, Jesus is still totally interested in you finding him. He will continue to call you, and remove those blocks which are inhibiting you from coming into that deep and loving relationship with him.
I will continue to pray for you. I tried to message you but you had turned it off. Please send me a pm if you return, as I would love to continue our dialogue and to encourage you that God does really love you.
God bless you on your travels!