I woke up feeling crummy.
I have never worked under bosses who actually full out hate me and make it known.
I came home late from working and collapsed on my couch, bawling my eyes out. I never allow it to show on the floor, because I'm there to do a job and that's it. I'm not there to make friends. Even on the phone with my boyfriend, I could not stop crying. I have never worked in such an atmosphere where people are so hateful. Typically, I can deal with hateful and broken people. It doesn't phase me. Even if it's concerning me (for whatever reason). But being belittled, yelling at me, rolling their eyes, looking like they're going to punch me (literally) for 6 hours or more.....I have no idea what I'm doing so wrong. I come in with a positive attitude and I have it for the whole shift, I am not standing around, I'm doing things around the store, I'm being helpful with customers, etc etc. I have had NO training whatsoever....they just put me on the floor. So yes, I am learning as I go and even though I'm picking up things quickly, I'm still learning in new situations.
They are finding little reasons to find fault with. I just put in 20 hours in two days. I'm not complaining with that, but I should be getting treated a little bit better than how I am. I've covered for people, I have been early to every shift. I'm ready to go when I get there. The problem isn't working too much. The problem is working too much and not feeling as a valued member of a team WITH working so much for them. I'm going to be working on Saturday from 8am-9:15pm. I'm tired, I feel unimportant, and so emotionally drained.