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I really do not know if this is the right place for this, or if the subject of this thread is correct. I have depression, disabled, PTSD and "suicdal". The reason for these things are long and do not know if they would help in finding answers. The main reason I am depressed is I am very lonely. I spend 96-98% of each week completely alone. No really to call one the phone or text that will reply. I have been basicly single all my life I have been on a few dates but nothing long term.
This makes me feel like I am not good enough for anyone. The only compliment I get is "you have a nice smile". Which always sounds like the stereotypical "You have a great personality" type compament. One that is safe you do not insult them, but you cannot say the truth because it would be rude. I have been called ugly in the past, and repeatedly treated like I am. Judging by how many girl/women have completely turned me down I can only concluded that it is true. That I am a horiable person or worse both.
i am overweight because I am disabled and cannot work out to much. Because of not being able to work I have little to no money. These are three huge strikes with most women. Younger girl do not want some of my age (37) especially brim out of shape and poor. They want some one young attractive and has money. Either enough to support them completely or to be an equal partner in the finances. Women my age want all of that plus if they have kids the last thing they want is someone that basically is another kid to take care of. I have tried with women of all (legal) ages, heights as sizes. Both short and tall girls want a guy over six feet tall. I do not make that if I stand on my tip toes.
i have a lot of aquatences but no real friends that I can count on. A few also are in different states. That is another problem with my age. Most guys my age have families they would rather spend time with.
I really do not want to be alive anymore, but I cannot kill myself either. I frequently wish God would call me home. That or I would be killed by somebody so I can leave this broken down torn up tent and go home.
i bet I know all the Bible verses that will be posted following this...
This makes me feel like I am not good enough for anyone. The only compliment I get is "you have a nice smile". Which always sounds like the stereotypical "You have a great personality" type compament. One that is safe you do not insult them, but you cannot say the truth because it would be rude. I have been called ugly in the past, and repeatedly treated like I am. Judging by how many girl/women have completely turned me down I can only concluded that it is true. That I am a horiable person or worse both.
i am overweight because I am disabled and cannot work out to much. Because of not being able to work I have little to no money. These are three huge strikes with most women. Younger girl do not want some of my age (37) especially brim out of shape and poor. They want some one young attractive and has money. Either enough to support them completely or to be an equal partner in the finances. Women my age want all of that plus if they have kids the last thing they want is someone that basically is another kid to take care of. I have tried with women of all (legal) ages, heights as sizes. Both short and tall girls want a guy over six feet tall. I do not make that if I stand on my tip toes.
i have a lot of aquatences but no real friends that I can count on. A few also are in different states. That is another problem with my age. Most guys my age have families they would rather spend time with.
I really do not want to be alive anymore, but I cannot kill myself either. I frequently wish God would call me home. That or I would be killed by somebody so I can leave this broken down torn up tent and go home.
i bet I know all the Bible verses that will be posted following this...