Welcome to CC bro' It doesn't matter where you have come from. If your greatest effort is to be with Him then you will know within yourself that all you have and are are to be His. Coming from great darkness into the light is blindingly beautiful. The love and acceptance can be overwhelming, and I pray the Holy Spirit will anoint you with power.
Make sure you ask the Holy Spirit to live in you, make sure you give to Jesus all the hidden parts of you that shame you, speak them out and their power within you will fade to nothing. Most important is to listen with your heart not with your mind and understanding, be on your guard, satan wants nothing more that for you to fail. Listen with your heart, feel with the Spirit God gives you, it will interact with your Spirit.
Please find someone to fellowship with, a church to meet with, they will help you with a direction for your energies and a filter for your emotions. Go in peace bro. If you want to talk PM me God bless, and I am praying for you.