I want to die

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HistoryPrincess said:
I'm tired of resisting the truth. That there's no fulfillment to be found in this life no matter how much I depend on God. I don't want to live a life with no promise of long-lasting relief. I don't want to wait until I die. The only kind of people who take pleasure in personal pain are masochists.
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Oh. When are you planning on depending on God? I haven't seen you do that yet. A prayer journal isn't really depending on God.

I got news for you. This has absolutely nothing to do with long-lasting relief.
 
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Pffft, don't believe it. (You do consider Trump and H. Clinton as elders, right? That just proves we're not wise. Not many of us at all, given we're the folks who voted them into the big election. lol)
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I dont like Trump or Clinton. And i said elders usally knoe what there doing.
 
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blue_ladybug said:
You want a fairy tale life, one free of pain and suffering. One filled with only happiness and no sorrow. News flash, honey: REAL life doesn't work that way!! God did not put us here to have entirely happy, easy lives. The ONLY long-lasting relief we will get is when we enter heaven and are renewed and restored. YOU must be a masochist then, because you sure are hanging onto alot of pain. And you're embracing satan's world of lies. I guess you must not love Jesus very much at all, if you're willing to serve satan and remain miserable, instead of serving God and letting Him make you happy. People here have tried to help you and you resist all advice. Have fun serving satan for the rest of your life, because I guarantee he will make you even more miserable than you are now. Oh and btw, people who are truly committed to wanting to die, DO NOT come onto an open forum and announce it. :/
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Rather than assuming she doesn't love Jesus, maybe take into considering there could be a depression aspect? And just because something worked for you doesn't automatically mean it will work for someone else? Come at it from a listening perspective and her point of view rather than scare and condemn, which is coming across what you're doing? Depression that has been bottling up year after year after year? People generally don't wake up one day and have the questions or responses like she has. So rather than try to scare her into thinking God is going to send her to hell, maybe drop the Bible act and come across it from a psychological perspective. Like the guy with GAD, we wouldn't tell the guy suffering from schizophrenia to just stop listening to the voices in his head. I'd think he would want to or else he wouldn't be paying his hard earn money to find what the problem is.
 
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Rather than assuming she doesn't love Jesus, maybe take into considering there could be a depression aspect? From stuff that has been bottling up year after year after year? People generally don't wake up one day and have the questions or responses like she has. So rather than try to scare her into thinking God is going to send her to hell, maybe drop the Bible act and come across it from a psychological perspective. Like the guy with GAD, we wouldn't tell the guy suffering from schizophrenia to just stop listening to the voices in his head. I'd think he would want to or else he wouldn't be paying his hard earn money to find what the problem is.
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Then she needs to dare to turn to God and stop believing satan's lies. She's playing right into his hands. One minute, she agrees with us, the next she finds a reason to keep resisting. If she has mental issues, then she needs a doctor's advice, and not the advice of strangers on an open forum. If she truly wants help, then she needs to reach out to God. He can help her alot better than any doctor or meds can.
 
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I always said internet forums bring out the worst in people. Just because I haven't experienced immediate healing doesn't mean you can judge my relationship with God. Try feeling different all your life because you think differently from everyone else. Try feeling as though you're not as strong in your faith as everyone else because you continue to struggle. Try feeling as though God is going to give up on you because of that, yet you reach out to him because he's never once been angry or short-tempered with you, but has always welcomed you back and told you how proud he is of you, how much he loves you, and how much he understands.
 
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Small children ask "Why", and then they ask "Why" again, and we understand.
Adults ask "Why", and then THEY try to understand.

I have a feeling someone isn't getting past the "Why", Why", "Why" stage yet.
 
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I always said internet forums bring out the worst in people. Just because I haven't experienced immediate healing doesn't mean you can judge my relationship with God. Try feeling different all your life because you think differently from everyone else. Try feeling as though you're not as strong in your faith as everyone else because you continue to struggle. Try feeling as though God is going to give up on you because of that, yet you reach out to him because he's never once been angry or short-tempered with you, but has always welcomed you back and told you how proud he is of you, how much he loves you, and how much he understands.
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Well, are you ever going to start believing Him? Or are you going to make Him have to do this your entire life? It's your choice.
 
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HistoryPrincess said:
I always said internet forums bring out the worst in people. Just because I haven't experienced immediate healing doesn't mean you can judge my relationship with God. Try feeling different all your life because you think differently from everyone else. Try feeling as though you're not as strong in your faith as everyone else because you continue to struggle. Try feeling as though God is going to give up on you because of that, yet you reach out to him because he's never once been angry or short-tempered with you, but has always welcomed you back and told you how proud he is of you, how much he loves you, and how much he understands.
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Instant healing doesn't happen very often in this lifetime. I have felt different my entire life, since about age 9 or so when I made my first suicide attempt. I've had seizures since the age of 5, and to this day they are an embarassment and a hindrance. I hated school because I had them all the time and the other kids didn't understand why. I had heavy periods and would bleed through my dress and the other kids would laugh. My mother makes fun of me to this day, as to how weird and odd and anti-social I am.. So I've been there, done it ALL. I have felt many times that God has deserted me, doesn't hear me and doesn't care. We have all been in that situation more than once. You claim to have a relationship with God, yet you're denying his power to help you. And you're betraying Him by giving into satan's lies.
 
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Instant healing doesn't happen very often in this lifetime. I have felt different my entire life, since about age 9 or so when I made my first suicide attempt. I've had seizures since the age of 5, and to this day they are an embarassment and a hindrance. I hated school because I had them all the time and the other kids didn't understand why. I had heavy periods and would bleed through my dress and the other kids would laugh. My mother makes fun of me to this day, as to how weird and odd and anti-social I am.. So I've been there, done it ALL. I have felt many times that God has deserted me, doesn't hear me and doesn't care. We have all been in that situation more than once. You claim to have a relationship with God, yet you're denying his power to help you. And you're betraying Him by giving into satan's lies.
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Göd bless you blue. Thats all i have to say
 
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Hi history princess..
My heart aches for you. You are at a desperate place right now and I can sense your pain. Sometimes when we are hurting we don't really hear what others say to us. But at this moment please hear me...Jesus loves you and he sees your pain and he weeps. Please let him love you. I don't know your situation but I know what your pain feels like. I've been there. But killing your self is not part of God's plan for you...and he does have a plan. Read Jeremiah 29:11
I hold onto that verse tightly because in believing those words I believe in myself. I love you and Jesus loves you. Please pray and talk to someone who can support you.
 
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blue_ladybug said:
Instant healing doesn't happen very often in this lifetime. I have felt different my entire life, since about age 9 or so when I made my first suicide attempt. I've had seizures since the age of 5, and to this day they are an embarassment and a hindrance. I hated school because I had them all the time and the other kids didn't understand why. I had heavy periods and would bleed through my dress and the other kids would laugh. My mother makes fun of me to this day, as to how weird and odd and anti-social I am.. So I've been there, done it ALL. I have felt many times that God has deserted me, doesn't hear me and doesn't care. We have all been in that situation more than once. You claim to have a relationship with God, yet you're denying his power to help you. And you're betraying Him by giving into satan's lies.
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I'm sorry for everything you've experienced. Truly, truly I am. I don't think I could go through all that myself. But I am his just as much as you are. I may have unkind thoughts toward him every now and then, but he's always kind toward me.
 
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Then she needs to dare to turn to God and stop believing satan's lies. She's playing right into his hands. One minute, she agrees with us, the next she finds a reason to keep resisting. If she has mental issues, then she needs a doctor's advice, and not the advice of strangers on an open forum. If she truly wants help, then she needs to reach out to God. He can help her alot better than any doctor or meds can.
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Not necessarily mental issues but more so relational issues which in turn creates that depression. Which in turn is mental along with spiritual, emotional, psychological, and physical. So I guess yeah, it would be mental. But it combines everything else. But yeah this is something that didn't just happen one day. It just happens to be one day in which it is layed out on here for folks to see
 
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Willie T is a very wise man. He has over 20 years experience with helping lost causes who really weren't so lost after all. If I remember correctly, he even has a prison ministry (I think, lol). You would do well to listen to him. :)
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I agree with you completely.
 
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tourist said:
I agree with you completely.
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Now, you know me personally, Jer, don't go filling these people's heads with that kind of stuff. (I might have to start trying to live up to some of that nonsense.)
 
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Now, you know me personally, Jer, don't go filling these people's heads with that kind of stuff. (I might have to start trying to live up to some of that nonsense.)
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You're too modest Willie. :)
 
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blue_ladybug said:
Instant healing doesn't happen very often in this lifetime. I have felt different my entire life, since about age 9 or so when I made my first suicide attempt. I've had seizures since the age of 5, and to this day they are an embarassment and a hindrance. I hated school because I had them all the time and the other kids didn't understand why. I had heavy periods and would bleed through my dress and the other kids would laugh. My mother makes fun of me to this day, as to how weird and odd and anti-social I am.. So I've been there, done it ALL. I have felt many times that God has deserted me, doesn't hear me and doesn't care. We have all been in that situation more than once. You claim to have a relationship with God, yet you're denying his power to help you. And you're betraying Him by giving into satan's lies.
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I'm really sorry for what happened to you Blue. I know you are a courageous fighter, and I'm just saying this out of love. And because I have a passion for psychology. Antisocial is a personality disorder. It has nothing to do with not being social. That would be asocial. Please try to remember that, as a lot of people think that about antisocial. And that line of thinking is hurting the mental field.
 
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