Sigh....
I just wish I didn't have to try to earn love from family
I have one little bit of good news for you; you don't. We are your family. I know that sounds cliché, but I can vouch for it on a personal level. We are so much richer for having you with us. You are an inspiration. We need you. We will pray for you. It will make a difference.
Your trials and hardships have already, at the tender young age you are, made you golden.
(Ps 91:1-7 [KJV])
He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the LORD, [He is] my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.
Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, [and] from the noisome pestilence.
He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth [shall be thy] shield and buckler.
Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; [nor] for the arrow [that] flieth by day;
[Nor] for the pestilence [that] walketh in darkness; [nor] for the destruction [that] wasteth at noonday.
A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; [but] it shall not come nigh thee.