Hi there! Welcome to CC, Lost and want to be found.
I'm sure many here will be able to help you along the way. Do you have questions you'd like to ask?
This is the forum here, but there are actual voices in chat. Here you have to type and wait for an answer. There you can ask and get an answer right away. I would suggest going to the bible study room if you want to try the chat rooms.
And yes, God loves you and He died for you and calls you to come to Him in repentance. You must be hearing His voice, maybe it's the time right now for you to answer Him.
It's not good to compare your life with others because not all of us will have the exact same life. I'd be pretty depressed too if I compared my life to others without the Lord in my life. Well actually now that I do have the Lord, I make it a point not to compare my life with others. We're all so unique and it's a gift and a blessing. We just need the eyes to see the blessing in our turmoil. Not for the difficulty, but for the beauty that comes out of the ashes.
He gave me beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness,
That we might be, trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord.
That He might be glorified.
Do you have family that are believers, friends?
You may want to find a new church if the one you're going to doesn't have time to discipleship you.
As you have already seen, it's not hard to post in any of the threads or you can begin a new thread to ask questions and find answers.
But again, please try out the chat rooms too, because like I said, they can talk to you right away and even pray with you. You can do both the forum and the chat rooms.
And again, welcome!!! We're pleased to have you here!