So, tell me, OP, you obviously reject God, but feel you are deserving of life.
Jesus holds the keys to life and death, for all life is found in Him. Do you want
to go to heaven? That was an anomaly I found in some non believers. They want
to thumb their nose at God but then cry about how unfair it is that He will not
allow hem into His house if they refuse to acknowledge His existence. Or they
make fun of living forever after as if our resurrected bodies are going to be like
the ones we inhabit now, and they judge life by this fallen sinful corrupted world
when the life to come will be free from the taint of sin and death will be no more,
for the mortal shall put on the immortal and the corruptible puts on the incorruptible
through faith in Christ alone. Do you have any feelings at all for Jesus Christ?