Not sure why Ugly says going to others for thoughts on a dream is dangerous, a little glass half empty in my opinion. It is unhelpful to advise a deconstructive sense on something. I think it is good to go to others for some interpretation, because, it might inspire YOU to make more of it. How others interpret things, doesn't mean much if it doesn't open your OWN interpretation of it. It's called brain storming.
Anyway what I pick up from your dream (just my opinion), because I take dreams in abstract opposition;
You hope to meet a God fearing man, and you want to feel secure with him, but are insecure about yourself, and you see yourself as passive when it comes to men. A dream can point out our unaware subconscious fears, to what our waking desire is (abstract opposite).
From my perspective this was a physical dream, as in very close to your being/conscious, rather than more spiritual out of body out of mind. Dreams like this show us things which are blocking us, which are stopping us from doing something.
Now if my opinion seemed correct to you (actually I just read your follow up comment and seems to be the case!), then these are things you need to work with God on. We attract people into our life on a subconscious level. As in we cannot hope for someone great, and all our problems will go away. It is important to work on those problems, or find at least a very good friend that you can work on them with.
Where there is resent, have forgiveness because this is aligned to God. Where there is blame, have insight that it takes two to tango. Where there is self-pity, have remorse and in that more free place, think about what you can change about you. Were you strong and Godly going into that relationship? You have to be honest with yourself. If you see yourself as a victim (which can be as simple as not feeling loved), then someone will come along and make a victim out of us.
Be grateful for the past, find that way that you can be grateful. Since being in your abusive relationship, maybe some parts of you have broken down a little (never indefinitely), especially the good memories, but is anything about you better and stronger? Being grateful is one of the MOST important things when it comes to overcoming such things, and it's a choice really. Many will say 'I'm never going to be grateful, I'm never going to forgive' and they are setting themselves to suffer within, or experience the same suffering in the future.
It seems like there is a lot of healing to do. But the dark scars of the past are only present when we see them as ugly. God was always with us, through our dark times.
There is no-one stopping you say these words 'I forgive ... for ...' 'I am grateful for ... because ...', only you stop that. But God constantly wants you to open up and connect to him. There are two possible outcomes from this, something feels wonderfully different, or nothing feels different. I've never heard anyone say the latter. I can only advise to experiment by trying, and see if nothing feels different, or you feel better, although I know which it is.
It is more a question of, have you endured enough pain yet to change something or try something different?
Although it was just a simple dream it left me feeling horrible. I dreamt I met what I thought was a nice God fearing man . I went over to his house with good intentions we were praying then out of nowhere he tries to sexually assault me. I get scared try to get out of his house afraid he is going to rape me.I plead with him to let me go and I'm looking out the window praying"God I'm scared let me go tell him to let me go!"I hit him and manage to get out of his house.While I'm outside all I want is to run get far away except I realize I'm utterly lost and I can't find my car.
I woke up shaken up. I tried to analyze it.
