So I'm a writer... and far too shy/critical to post my writings.. but i lost a bet...

[DABEARS85]

AHHHHHHH.... OK. Reasons I am posting this:

Short Explanation:I lost a bet

Longer explanation:

Well I'm an English major for some stupid reason (this means I not only get paid nothing, but also means I chose to forgo my previous professional choice of Electrical Engineering... I'm giving up money to be a bad writer/teacher... sighhh), and I always get told by people that have the very very very very rare priveledge of reading anything I write (because whenever I write it's always emotional crap, and for some reason I find it impossible to write anything without being emotional or feeling strongly about something for some reason) that I should post it somewhere. I hardly ever show anyone anything for the reasons stated previously, but I figure enough is enough. I need to get over the fear of showing my wonderfully, amazingly terrible writing to others. When I get emo or uncontrollably bored my fingers start to move uncontrollably on a keyboard and sentences somehow form. This is by far not coming from my own mind, because I would never write things so bad! Not very many close friends even know I do this, but well... this is the internet! The internet is full of crazies like me! You are all crazy just like me for even reading this far! ha

Anyway, I figure I mine as well do it here in the glorious singles forum for all you ladies (hopefully not men, but I'll pray for you if so!) to be wooed by my writing skills (anyone notice the terrible grammar from before? oh yes it continues because as I like to be like all great writers, I make up my own rules!). <-- that didn't need ( ) things either but it's far too late for me to write properly atm. It's 3 am.. and I'll regret ever making this thread tomorrow I promise you.

Ok so without further ado... I'll post a few things.. because I lost a bet to someone basically and so now I'm living up to my end of the bargain. My hope is that no one reads any of this stuff, honestly. If any of you think this stuff is good, just know I think you are wrong! ahahahaha. A writers own worst critic is himself, and I'm also an honest critic. That's like foot in mouth disease... it's a killer! Ok I'm rambling... here goes nothing... (I'm never going to bet ever again!) *cries*

Ok hmm... here's a couple poems I wrote before... God... I hate myself right now...

This ones called...

A Boy Goes Along
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A boy goes along, yet does not go a long way
For the way is never clear
He goes one way, then another, yet never draws near
Nearer to that which he hopes to find
But he trips! Stumbles! Tumbles in kind
And as hope fades away… he realizes, “I’m losing my mind."

For off in the distance, he sees her there
The girl for whom he’s been searching, he sees here there
And he sits
And he stares
Dare he not move? Yet he could not, for he has seen no creature so fair
For Love was her name, and for this sight, he could not prepare

Time froze for a moment, an eternity of kind
Gentle hope mended his heart, and in turn, broke his mind
For a moment later, off in the distance, she was not there
Into the wind she left, the girl named Love, the creature so fair
For she is owned by hope, and hope does not share

“Why?!” he screamed, a desperate prayer
Why let this Love go away, stolen by air
A dream? An illusion? He does not care
For he has never seen such a thing, a creature so fair

And this is when the boy becomes a man, and a man he became
Grabbed himself tight, and picked himself up from the shame
On the ground were his cards, useless, and all to blame
For Love he lost, such a terrible game

And he thought, “Never again will I search for this girl!”
“Away she went! At least I gave it a whirl.”
And he quit, and he sunk into a world full of nothing
Numb to the world, and the world to his bluffing

For it knew his heart still searched, though his mind has spoken
For Love had desire to take his heart, even though it was broken
Yet he did not give it freely, and hardly ever at that
And the world gave him naught but his memory to combat

And so he lived on, for many more days,
Broken-hearted he was, and stuck in his daze
Yet the story goes on, even with lack of phrase
For this is the beginning, the end never stays

here's another stupid short one for those who are unfortunately still reading.... ahhh

Such a Simple Thing



Love is such a simple thing, yet far and far behind

Subtle thoughts with dreary eyes, the hope a distant mind

Tired sadness takes the course, when thoughts we cannot bear

To face the hardship of this feat, when love is in the air

Slow goes time and slow the days, languid dawns and indolent shades

I wait and wait forever now, yet through trust the thought remains

The want of touch, of kiss, of much, the things we do not own

Every day is something new, yet my love is set in stone

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Here's a song I wrote not that long ago... It's a slower song... I realize you can't really hear how it sounds in just words... but singing/playing it on guitar wasn't part of the bet! haha... It's called..


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When we get there

Sometimes I long for the other side/It's gonna be better there
My mind will finally find it's rest/From the noise I'm livin in here
People are gonna be there/People I remember
People who've got messed up lives are gonna be all better
There's a space for everybody/And everybody will have their place

When we get there/Gonna see Jesus...Yes we are
When we get there/There's gonna be peace
When we get there/There be no more tears on our faces
When we get there/I wanna see You

We will be leavin in a little while/We will be gone in a little while
Things that we dreamed of here/Just taste it and they slipped away
Are gonna be there
No no no more trouble/No sadness no silent desperation
And I won't miss those feelings no/I won't miss those feelings no/I wont miss those feelings no

When we get there/We're gonna see Jesus...Yes we are
When we get there/There's gonna be peace
When we get there/There be no more tears on our faces
When we get there/I wanna see You

Sometimes I long for the other side/It's gonna be better there
Gonna see my Jesus/Yes I am, I wanna see You there
I wanna see you there/Wanna see you there
When we get there

Here's another song I wrote. Once again, I understand it's hard to understand how it sounds like this. This one is like a fast paced funky type beat. I dunno how to describe it... I wrote it while just havin fun... but yeah... This is just filler I guess haha:

Weird Things

Hey I'm feeling like dancin, cuz my life ain't boring
I get chills when I feel the unexpected thing happenin to me
Whoaaa they keep happenin to me

And I get that fallin in love feelin when, changes send me realin
That's how I know I'm gonna grow old
And go where I've never been before, and open some brand new door

Life feels safe to those who are livin in safe circles
But that's not what we were built for.... no

I've been havin these weird things... that keep happenin to me
All kinds of freaky things.... and I like it..yeah
I've been havin these weird things that keep a happenin to me
All I know is things I can't control... a keep happenin to me

Hey, I am available, weird stuff and miracles
I like lookin at my life... the spiritual life..
Wildness is no surprise

And I might get dirt on my face, someone invading my space
I might, stand on the door with my nightmare, and tell it what I feel
Even if it's real

Don't ya know that life feels safe to those livin in safe circles
But that's not what we were built for

I be havin these weird things... that keep happenin to me
All kinds of freaky things... and I like it..yeah
I be havin these weird things... that keep happenin to me
All I know is things I can't control... keep happenin to me

It makes a difference... a lot more color...
seriously moooooves me
And I laugh harder, and I cry harder
And I wanna take everything life has to give
I watch myself do good in the weird situation
Got to be something I can learn from that...YEAH

(humming)

I be havin these weird things... that keep a happenin to me
All kinds of freaky things... and I like it...yeah
I be havin these weird things... that keep happenin to me
All I know is things I can't control keep happenin to me... yes they do... mmmhmm



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Here's just another bit of writing that I know I've posted on CC before... but it was honestly something I wrote a long time ago while in one of those crazy writing moods where my fingers just started moving. I guess I'll repost it to conclude my bit of writing to the world. Maybe someone out there enjoyed all of this eh? If not.. well... I fulfilled my part of my lost bet either way! Thanks for reading everyone! This is titled...

Desire


There is one thing in life that will always hold true. In every person, there is a passionate, burning, even fanatical desire for more....

Most try to get over this excruciating desire by burying it. Human nature is to numb the pain, to control our hunger, to never feel it too deeply lest it undo us. We destroy the very spirit of life within us as we try to subdue the raving lunacies of our own hopes and dreams. To give into these desires opens oneself up to horrifying failures, yet to dull those vivid fairy tales deadens not only our hope, but our very souls. Light becomes a little dimmer, the colors around us fade, the monotony of everyday drags us along. We don't live... we merely exist. The deadened soul takes more and more to stimulate it, and the downward spiral leads to anger, then acceptance, and finally dependency. Sometimes, out of great desperation to feel anything at all, we go out of our way to provoke ourselves. Even still, we never seem to quite know what we want. We buy a new car, vacation to paradise, and own a new pair of sunglasses, yet the craving never seems to wane. Our desires are diverted into material possessions, because we never quite realize what we genuinely need. We try food, television, and sex, back and forth, back and forth, and yet we never quite find satisfaction or even the lowly status of contentment. We always long for something more...

What is it that makes life worth living? What drives the human conscious into remaining within a place of such indifference and hate? What is it that makes a domain of ominous gloaming transform to a world of resplendent aurora, giving birth to those magnificent beams of hope? Such a thing is so simple, yet beyond the comprehension of the greatest minds. An astonishingly fragile link if left exclusive, yet once bound with another it holds so tight that time forever could not loosen the bind. Such a thing is the key to a world full of beauty and happiness, of jubilant exclamations and rhapsodic cries. It holds no grudges and carries no burdens. Such a thing is more valuable than the holy grail, more elusive than the fountain of youth, and more awesome than the tallest mountain and the deepest sea. Such a thing is known simply as love.​

If anyone liked any of this stuff and actually read any of it... Feel free to boost my non-existent ego! If you have any constructive criticism, that would be appreciated too. If you just wanna say it sucks... well then you will just be agreeing with me, so you probably will be wasting your own time on that one! Thanks!

Oh, and to clarify... I'd rather not mention what the bet was about It was pretty stupid, and I think I knew I was going to lose. This is mainly to help me get over my fear of showing people what I write. If I'm going to be a teacher/writer/whatever one day, I probably need to get over that fear now. None of this stuff is that serious so... I guess this is helping me in it's own way. Thanks for reading to those who did! I appreciate it. Let me know what you think?
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[chefj]

woah there's a lot of them! I read the first one (and to my surprise there were a lot!) and i think its lovely. I think you should have a site of your own to post all these, since you're willing to share them anyway. Or, at least create a blog page, just a suggestion. This cool stuff has got to be shared


cheers!

 

[DABEARS85]

Thank you for the awesome response I wouldn't know the first thing about how to start up a blog though. I'm not even entirely comfortable to even post the things I did, but it is in a lot of ways a way for me to get over the fear of it all. Writing isn't exactly something I tell my friends that I do lol. Either way, thanks for the kind words! I appreciate it!

 

[chefj]

Thank you for the awesome response I wouldn't know the first thing about how to start up a blog though. I'm not even entirely comfortable to even post the things I did, but it is in a lot of ways a way for me to get over the fear of it all. Writing isn't exactly something I tell my friends that I do lol. Either way, thanks for the kind words! I appreciate it!

The reason you have for not telling the whole world about your work is the same reason why i blog secretly. LOL. You may want to try the same; its kinda liberating. And, unlike you who carried on with this passion for writing, I stopped long ago. I used to write for a living but i quit. LOL. High five! haha!

 

[DABEARS85]

The reason you have for not telling the whole world about your work is the same reason why i blog secretly. LOL. You may want to try the same; its kinda liberating. And, unlike you who carried on with this passion for writing, I stopped long ago. I used to write for a living but i quit. LOL. High five! haha!

lol! You shouldn't quit! I haven't really done it for a living though. I am going to be an English teacher somewhere probably, so I am just writing for fun at the moment. Maybe one day I will write professionally, but I think that might suck some of my passion out of it like it did you! Well, either way, you are free to post things on here too if you'd like! I'd love to read some! hi-5 to you!

 

[chefj]

lol! You shouldn't quit! I haven't really done it for a living though. I am going to be an English teacher somewhere probably, so I am just writing for fun at the moment. Maybe one day I will write professionally, but I think that might suck some of my passion out of it like it did you! Well, either way, you are free to post things on here too if you'd like! I'd love to read some! hi-5 to you!

Haha, maybe one day. And aint funny that I am currently an English teacher now? LOL!!!! I wrote for a living and then decided im better off as a teacher. I have been teaching English as a second language in asian for about three years now. But like I said, i have this blog that serve s an outlet to my not-so-frequent outburst of desire to write.

 

[chefj]

Haha, maybe one day. And aint funny that I am currently an English teacher now? LOL!!!! I wrote for a living and then decided im better off as a teacher. I have been teaching English as a second language in asian for about three years now. But like I said, i have this blog that serve s an outlet to my not-so-frequent outburst of desire to write.

Asian countries i meant

 

[DABEARS85]

Asian countries i meant

Yeah, I've considered doing something like that someday when I'm done with my degree too. More along the lines of a native speaker teaching English in an Asian country. I've gotten a few offers from random places already, and I LOVE to travel with a passion, so I may do it for a year or two sometime down the road. I've never been to asia, and I've been to almost every other continent in the world. I think it would be a good opportunity, even if the money isn't so amazing lol. I would do it more for the experience than anything anyway. We'll see

 

[chefj]

There are some countries in Asia that would compensate you well for doing TESL. And while it does pay well, its the cultural experience and the traveling which make even more priceless. Its when you immerse in a different culture and experience it as if its your own, that it turns into joy more than a job.

And before this forum becomes a chatbox (LOL!), i better bid you a hope for the best in your chosen field, whatever that is. Be an even more excellent writer! See ya round

 

[DABEARS85]

There are some countries in Asia that would compensate you well for doing TESL. And while it does pay well, its the cultural experience and the traveling which make even more priceless. Its when you immerse in a different culture and experience it as if its your own, that it turns into joy more than a job.

And before this forum becomes a chatbox (LOL!), i better bid you a hope for the best in your chosen field, whatever that is. Be an even more excellent writer! See ya round

Lol, well I don't think I'm a very good writer as it is, but who knows? Maybe I'll get better! And I agree, I love to travel and see new places more than anything I think. I guess I can use my profession to actually do that through the TESL thing. That would be fun I think! Thanks for the encouragement

 

[NodMyHeadLikeYeah]

Dear whatever your name may be,

I read them. It was good.

The end.

 

[seoulsearch]

Hi DaBears,

My favorites were the "When We Get There"--especially the part about our minds having rest from the "noise" of this world, which fits me personally to a T.

I also enjoyed "Weird Things" and "Desire" because those are the phases I'm going through in my own life--feeling "stirrings" in your heart of dreams, ambitions, and goals, but not knowing if it's God or the flesh... wrestling with what is my own will, and what is God's... not having any solid answers, and feeling as if you're stabbing in the dark, but still trying.

I probably could have really gotten into "A Boy Goes Along" and "Such a Simple Thing" if I weren't in such a "Love, Bah Humbug!"-type mood right now , so please don't take that as a negative response--you certainly are not responsible for my current attitude problems (too many horror-story blind dates, you know ).

Give me some time to snap out of my current frame of mind and I'm sure I'll have nothing but rave reviews!!

Thank you for sharing with us--keep posting, and keep at it!

 

[christiancollegegirl]

Hey, those were pretty good!!

 

[Sharp]

mate you should combine your two passions and write poems about electricity.

 

[DABEARS85]

Hi DaBears,

My favorites were the "When We Get There"--especially the part about our minds having rest from the "noise" of this world, which fits me personally to a T.

I also enjoyed "Weird Things" and "Desire" because those are the phases I'm going through in my own life--feeling "stirrings" in your heart of dreams, ambitions, and goals, but not knowing if it's God or the flesh... wrestling with what is my own will, and what is God's... not having any solid answers, and feeling as if you're stabbing in the dark, but still trying.

I probably could have really gotten into "A Boy Goes Along" and "Such a Simple Thing" if I weren't in such a "Love, Bah Humbug!"-type mood right now , so please don't take that as a negative response--you certainly are not responsible for my current attitude problems (too many horror-story blind dates, you know ).

Give me some time to snap out of my current frame of mind and I'm sure I'll have nothing but rave reviews!!

Thank you for sharing with us--keep posting, and keep at it!

lol well, no worries about the bah humbug thing! I have the same type of attitude half the time! hahaha

anyway, thanks I'm glad you liked them! Maybe I'll find it in me to actually post more one day... without losing a bet! I dunno, we'll see. Anyway, I'm glad someone likes it!

mate you should combine your two passions and write poems about electricity.

if this were possible, I would do it! I'm not sure where to even start with that one though. I know of nothing less interesting than electrical engineering, so if I could ever make something that MADE it interesting... I'd be a genius.

 

[NodMyHeadLikeYeah]

eenie meenie miney mo where did all the electricity go

 

[DABEARS85]

eenie meenie miney mo where did all the electricity go

I think it went to your head!

 

[NodMyHeadLikeYeah]

you got jokes????

 

[DABEARS85]

you got jokes????

Jokes? Where? Never met him! Is he a strapping fellow with overly gelled hair and a beard?

 

[NodMyHeadLikeYeah]

Jokes? Where? Never met him! Is he a strapping fellow with overly gelled hair and a beard?

just as i thought!