So I want to thank everyone who reads this and most important all who will pray for me.
I really do not desire to live this world being dull and useless. I truly desire a purpose from God, if I can just be an inspiration for someone I will be honored. I feel like I have so much inside of myself, so much to share. But because of fear of rejection, and the fear of people and what they may think or say.. I've allowed myself to be quiet and ashamed. God told me one day while I was in church, he said " do not be afraid to praise me" it didn't really hit me until recently when I notice that I am ashamed of him in a way, because when I want to speak about Jesus to someone I hold back because of fear of how they may respond and that's being ashamed, so I definitely do not want to be ashamed of God because I do not want him to be ashamed of me. Also, I do not desire to live a life being ungrateful.. I tend to be ungrateful at times and I do not want to be because people have it worse than others and I am understanding the true importance of being thankful. ( I have a lot to work on) but I desire to be worked on. God can use anyone who is willing right? So my prayer request is to be used for God to have a place in the world. Often times I feel invisible, or "worthless" or not valuable, or not good enough. I am TIRED of feeling that way. There has to be a purpose for me. Like I said, I have so much inside but how do I get others to see me? I am requesting that you all pray for me. I desire to do something so amazing and great, I desire to SPEAK without fear and have a voice. I LOVE encouraging others and I love talking about Jesus, People need to hear the truth these days, There is so much hopelessness, and darkness, people are dying every day because they feel like there's no hope or nothing to look forward to. (I've felt this way many of times) but I can tell someone or anyone that if you are alive and breathing and able to see the sunlight there is hope for you.. someone needs you and someone loves you. So I hope you all keep me in your prayers, sincerely. I can really really use it. God hears each and everyone of you. And I will be praying for each of you as well.
I really do not desire to live this world being dull and useless. I truly desire a purpose from God, if I can just be an inspiration for someone I will be honored. I feel like I have so much inside of myself, so much to share. But because of fear of rejection, and the fear of people and what they may think or say.. I've allowed myself to be quiet and ashamed. God told me one day while I was in church, he said " do not be afraid to praise me" it didn't really hit me until recently when I notice that I am ashamed of him in a way, because when I want to speak about Jesus to someone I hold back because of fear of how they may respond and that's being ashamed, so I definitely do not want to be ashamed of God because I do not want him to be ashamed of me. Also, I do not desire to live a life being ungrateful.. I tend to be ungrateful at times and I do not want to be because people have it worse than others and I am understanding the true importance of being thankful. ( I have a lot to work on) but I desire to be worked on. God can use anyone who is willing right? So my prayer request is to be used for God to have a place in the world. Often times I feel invisible, or "worthless" or not valuable, or not good enough. I am TIRED of feeling that way. There has to be a purpose for me. Like I said, I have so much inside but how do I get others to see me? I am requesting that you all pray for me. I desire to do something so amazing and great, I desire to SPEAK without fear and have a voice. I LOVE encouraging others and I love talking about Jesus, People need to hear the truth these days, There is so much hopelessness, and darkness, people are dying every day because they feel like there's no hope or nothing to look forward to. (I've felt this way many of times) but I can tell someone or anyone that if you are alive and breathing and able to see the sunlight there is hope for you.. someone needs you and someone loves you. So I hope you all keep me in your prayers, sincerely. I can really really use it. God hears each and everyone of you. And I will be praying for each of you as well.