Do you think you have a good reputation that I can defame it?
Realism would help you greatly.
Here's the whole picture of what I see in you. You are a young man trying to seem old and wise. I really do get that we're never going to be completely wise in our entire lives. And youth comes complete with inexperience along with a whole lot of tumbles. ("Tried that. Didn't work. Tried that. Didn't work." Those kinds of tumbles.) But the thing the tumbles are supposed to teach us is we aren't wise, and we have much to learn. (I will let you know if I ever get to the point of feeling I finally arrived at wisdom or finally arrived to the point of learning it all. Do NOT hold your breath waiting for that to happen.)
You're problem is you tend to think your job is to teach everyone from your vast stores of wisdom.
My problem is trying to teach you you don't yet have the vast stores of wisdom.
And this has nothing to do with age. Blain is your age and he teaches within the set of what he has learned so far. He gets he has miles to go on the stuff he doesn't know so far. And he gets he might be wrong. You tend to think you got everything you need already and thus you are here to impart this great wisdom onto the rest of us fools.
You know what I want out of you? Why I keep harping on you? I want you to stop putting on the old-and-wise fake face, and to speak from the real you. The you who knows you don't know everything yet. The you that is willing to concede that simple little commonality we all have, so you can open your mind to the obvious thing you're missing. You've been indoctrinated into a boat load of crap, and have, as yet, come to realize it is one huge boatload of crap!
People come to the Lord complete with huge boat loads of crap. A lot of the crap we don't even know is crap for years. (I really was raised Catholic, and when I was born again landed into a group who believe the same crap about healing that you do. It took me a very short time to learn what RCC crap I carried as treasure. It took me even longer to dump the crap I learned from that first place I landed after being born again. I didn't know it was crap until I listened to real people of God and read the Bible. So, again, this is not about age.)
Once we get which stuff is and which stuff isn't crap, then it is joint effort to dump the cargo we carry. You keep thinking you've got no crap.
If we're being honest here, I've never liked the way you misread people's intentions, and think you know their heart in matters. Especially when it comes to me, as you mischaracterize me and think there are ulterior motives. Even worse is that instead of keeping your opinion to yourself, you wish to air it out to the world and for all to see, not using sound judgement.
I am still learning, and I know to not think myself wise in my own understanding (something the Lord taught me). It isn't me being a know it all, its me operating in the gifts He has given me, and using them for the edification of all. How little you know me to think I don't look in a mirror and see flaws. The smallest of them sadden me.
As for my reputation, that is in the hands of those watching, those reading, and those we are to be a witness to. I'm not going to boast of my conduct, I will let it speak for itself.
You have this gripe against me, that you wish to somehow catch me in the act of passive aggressiveness. Is it because I once expressed it, what I saw, in you, and it was a righteous judgement? Do you wish to make me out to be a hypocrite? I think you have more important things to do.
The Lord lets me know when I have "crap" that needs addressing, He keeps me clean. He is my Teacher, so you don't have to express concern. He's got me.