Oh sorry.. It's been dead here lately, and I tend not to read all the posts I miss. Umm, no, my bible reading and praying hasn't improved at all. I'm trying to read the more interesting parts of the bible, but as I mentioned before, I get distracted after a minute or two. I very much feel like God doesn't hear me when I DO pray, so what's the use really, is how I feel right now.
It's winter, and my depression really flares up and kicks my butt every winter. Not to mention Vermont is currently getting slammed with snow right now. So my depression isn't helping my spiritual life at all. I keep trying to pull myself up and out, but I'm failing rather miserably at it.
I want to try and move outta this dump this year, hopefully before next winter. I've lived here for 20 years, and I feel very oppressed and depressed in this building. My neighbors are nosy, others are noisy, but they're all crazy and I need a change of environment. Between the river out back and the rock ledge across the road, which has come down, I think 2 times now, and all the mold in these apartments from the river flooding the basement, this building is not safe either structurally or environmentally.
I'm hoping to move to Pioneer Apts. The mailboxes are inside, the rental office is downstairs, and there's also a laundromat on premises. Best thing is, the bus comes through once an hour all day. Not to mention I already know several of the people who live there.
As for the enemy, he's attacking me hard, but as always I WILL survive.