I wanted to share this story of something I've been going through recently.
I have been a born-again believer for a while. But I have the tendency to get off track with God when things are going good.
I'd been out of touch with God for a while, couple of years. But for a couple of months now I have been really trying to pray and draw near to God. Then, I recently started to experience extremely severe attacks of anxiety whenever I started to pray and when I am in church. Not that I don't have that at other times, but during those times it seemed to be most severe. I have never taken drugs or being involved in any kind of occult activity. I do however have a sketchy sexual history.
Started to fast, confess past sins and relationships to God. I believe God is healing me but I have a few questions about the process.... I believe I need to be filled with the Holy Spirit again. But I don't know how to be emptied of self so that I can be filled with the Spirit. I still have these feelings at times... I started to confess what the Word of God said about fear. I find it takes my mind off the issues. But I really just want to move forward from this. I kind of feel like where I am now is as a result of my wandering away from God and I now need to get back to Him.
I guess my questions are: how does one get refilled with the Holy Spirit again after I believe I hurt His heart when I wandered away from Him?
Also, what advice do you have for anyone wanting to get back to God and going through this process? Is there an end? Am I on the right track? I see changes in my Spirit every day, but I am so impatient! I want to get back on the right track with God and be like it was when I first knew Him!!!!
I have been a born-again believer for a while. But I have the tendency to get off track with God when things are going good.
I'd been out of touch with God for a while, couple of years. But for a couple of months now I have been really trying to pray and draw near to God. Then, I recently started to experience extremely severe attacks of anxiety whenever I started to pray and when I am in church. Not that I don't have that at other times, but during those times it seemed to be most severe. I have never taken drugs or being involved in any kind of occult activity. I do however have a sketchy sexual history.
Started to fast, confess past sins and relationships to God. I believe God is healing me but I have a few questions about the process.... I believe I need to be filled with the Holy Spirit again. But I don't know how to be emptied of self so that I can be filled with the Spirit. I still have these feelings at times... I started to confess what the Word of God said about fear. I find it takes my mind off the issues. But I really just want to move forward from this. I kind of feel like where I am now is as a result of my wandering away from God and I now need to get back to Him.
I guess my questions are: how does one get refilled with the Holy Spirit again after I believe I hurt His heart when I wandered away from Him?
Also, what advice do you have for anyone wanting to get back to God and going through this process? Is there an end? Am I on the right track? I see changes in my Spirit every day, but I am so impatient! I want to get back on the right track with God and be like it was when I first knew Him!!!!
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