Feeling lost and confused.

[Lafftur]

Here is the YouTube video clip of the Roman Centurion Commander and his encounter with Jesus from the Movie: "Jesus of Nazareth"

There are signs of the political tensions there with an appearance of "Barabbas" the revolutionary who were trying to overthrow the Roman Empire's occupation there. But Jesus refused to take political sides, and said that all people were welcome in God's Kingdom, rich and poor, church goers and soldiers. I have heard heart-wrenching stories of combat that can tempt soldiers to lose hope and I have often heard or read that some veterans say things like, "how can God forgive me for killing people?" Please remember that, as my brother, a former pastor said once when I was despairing of false feelings from depression which can lead people to "feel" condemned at times-- he said, "Our sins are like a drop in the ocean of God's Mercy."

As the Apostle John said,
"If our heart condemns us, God is greater than our hearts and knows all things." (1 John 3:20)
He had either experienced it himself, which is common in severe spiritual warfare--Jesus Himself experienced the horrifying experience of "feeling" separated from God's Light in His humanity, saying

"My God, My God-- why have you forsaken Me?" (Matthew 27:46)

Was He forsaken? Or was it only an experience of abandonment?

What John was teaching about was likely to counsel people who came to him with these common human sufferings. He was saying that our own hearts do not have the power or authority to either condemn us or the opposite, to justify us as individual people, against our free-will. When we are tempted by this deceiving spirit, and spirits of condemnation come from the devil, it is a temptation to exalt ourselves above the free-gift of salvation, which is a subtle form of idolatry of the self, which I've heard called, "self-justification."

To deny the Cross and the Blood of Christ which is the perfect, and only, means of being restored to God's favor, is the only unforgivable sin. Anything else is a deceiving spirit trying to condemn people, and fallen angels (demons) do not have that power or authority either. All they have is the "power" of deception, trying to get people to believe them, instead of the voice truth.

If you have read this far, you have not committed any unforgivable sins. People who have mortally resisted God's Light, don't even get this close to salvation. They are busy out opposing God, or they are in need of dramatic divine intervention. It is possible that someone might read this in order to use it as ammunition of hatred against God or HIs people. If that is not you, then reject all the negative lying bs, and just say, "I'll let God decide," if you are not able to "feel" an immediate confirmation of your conversion.
What did John say?
Who and what is greater than our own feelings?

I guess I got started on this due to my own life of spiritual warfare, and what I have heard some battered soldiers have used as an excuse not to turn to God.
We can't think our way into heaven or out of heaven.
We can't perform our way into or out of heaven.

We can't save ourselves, or our marriages on our own power, or rescue ourselves from the depths of depression.
Even King David, one of the greatest warrior kings of the Bible said,
"Out of the depths (of despair) I cry out to thee, LORD hear my prayer." (Psalm 130:1).

And that was someone who had sent a military commander to the front lines to be killed, so he could steal his wife, something that would be a cause for a court-martial in today's military, and some might consider an "unforgivable offense," before God, since King David knew God closely. But, he also experienced deep depressions, where he lost sight of God, and also temptations such as the commanders wife.

AS this YouTube video shows, the LORD honored the Roman military commanders faith, even though he was not yet even a member of the Jewish faith, or even Christian.

Truth is the most powerful weapon against the devil and all the lying, deceiving fallen spirits that stalk the earth. Christ died to defeat them all.
Who won on the cross?
What are we as Christians celebrating today on Easter?
Jesus won.

Yeshua/Jesus won.......for us! Thank You, Lord! Hallelujah! Thank You!

 

[HeraldtheNews]

I also wanted to add, but ran out of editing time for the message that those who are legitimately authorized to use deadly force such as members of military forces, police officers, and others, are protected under the umbrella of divine authorization to defend peace in societies, as long as they don't deliberately and knowingly violate that authorization. Even then, it is not a death sentence.
Who took that death sentence for the entire world?
Do not be deceived by the devil, or your own feelings or hopelessness which are often fueled by fallen spirits:
Only God has the authority to justify or condemn.
And we are commanded by God not to judge others (or ourselves) as being either saved or condemned, which would elevate ourselves to the position of judge.
Come on.
Is it rational to resist the light?
Even trees know better than that.

 

[HeraldtheNews]

Yeshua/Jesus won.......for us! Thank You, Lord! Hallelujah! Thank You!

Amen Sistah!!
Christ is Risen!

 

[Redleg2017]

Here is what I can gather from your post:

1. Your wife is not a Christian, and maybe you are not either.
2. She is addicted to her phone to compensate but you are free from addictions.
3. You both need to make a fresh start (unless it is already too late to salvage your marriage)
4. You both need to repent and receive Christ as your Lord and Savior.
5. That would mean that He is in control of your lives and you would have different priorities.
6. For her repentance would mean getting rid of her phone altogether, since it has been a barrier to a proper relationship. And if she is communicating with other men that has to stop altogether.
7. For you it might mean focusing on your wife and family instead of your job.

Once you are saved you need to find a sound Christian church to have fellowship with Christians and receive discipleship from more mature Christians.

First we are both catholic and believe in Christ. True we are not faithful in our religion. We have been trying and things have been good for a few months. I believe she has been afraid to open up and finally has. For me I do focus on my wife and family. I do the little things and have been showing her I appreciate everything she has done. Yes my focus was on my military career. I have retired two years ago and see the damage it has done. If I could I would go back to when I first met my wife and get out when she asked me to. Is she addicted to her phone I believe so, I have tried to tell her in a subtle way as to not argue, no luck. Last counselor we saw I brought it up and the counselor said that it’s ok to be on it all the time. On all my deployments I have looked up at the stars and heavens a lot. Because I’m the desert you can see so much more. I did this after I talked to my wife and kids before they would go to bed. I would tell them to look at the moon for ten minutes and say I live you to the moon and back. I would go look at the moon and say the same to them. Then I would ask Jesus to keep my wife, kids and myself safe and say a prayer to myself. Telling my wife who she can talk to I feel is being controlling. I should be able to trust who she speaks to and trust if she truly has feelings and loves me I should not have to worry.

 

[Redleg2017]

Redleg, next time could you please space your paragraphs further apart? I couldn't read your wall of text.

My apologies. I tried to space it better.

 

[oyster67]

First we are both catholic and believe in Christ. True we are not faithful in our religion. We have been trying and things have been good for a few months. I believe she has been afraid to open up and finally has. For me I do focus on my wife and family. I do the little things and have been showing her I appreciate everything she has done. Yes my focus was on my military career. I have retired two years ago and see the damage it has done. If I could I would go back to when I first met my wife and get out when she asked me to. Is she addicted to her phone I believe so, I have tried to tell her in a subtle way as to not argue, no luck. Last counselor we saw I brought it up and the counselor said that it’s ok to be on it all the time. On all my deployments I have looked up at the stars and heavens a lot. Because I’m the desert you can see so much more. I did this after I talked to my wife and kids before they would go to bed. I would tell them to look at the moon for ten minutes and say I live you to the moon and back. I would go look at the moon and say the same to them. Then I would ask Jesus to keep my wife, kids and myself safe and say a prayer to myself. Telling my wife who she can talk to I feel is being controlling. I should be able to trust who she speaks to and trust if she truly has feelings and loves me I should not have to worry.

Don't give up. We have a friend in Jesus. We have a friend in God.