Wow - God brought me to this chat site for a reason!!
I’ve been attempting to quit for the last 4 months and it has been TORTURE!!! I’ve been using nicotine mints but smoking on and off. At the point of tearing my hair out because now I’m addicted to TWO types of nicotine and feel worse off than the day I started to ‘quit’
I resolved this morning that I am going to do it cold turkey and set my face like a flint!!!! See how I go. It’s 12:48am here and was hoping tomorrow would be DAY 1!!!!
I’m sick of trampling on the blood of Christ, I’m sick off smoking whilst crying pleading for mercy, I’m sick of being in BONDAGE! We are to be mastered by nothing
Let’s do it!!!!!
I pray for all of God's grace in this most worthy endeavor of yours to quit smoking. I am in bondage too. There are countless others like ourselves. In years past I have prayed for God to deliver me from this evil addiction but He did not answer my prayer. The reason that He did not was because He knew that I was lying about my desire to quit. I am not lying anymore.
I have many other recent posts about my struggle to overcome this addiction in my Pain Management Clinic thread that you may find helpful in your own struggle. And believe me, you and I both know that it is indeed a struggle.
I am starting my second month of being smoke free. I find that the nicotine lozenges are helpful but I still often think about actually smoking.
The thing is, my wife has prayed for me to quit for years and I decided, with the grace of God, to be an answer to her prayers. I don't want to sneak off for an occasional smoke as then I would have to lie to her whether or not I am still smoke free. I have lied to her in the past but by the grace of God, I will not lie to her again.
It is just like drinking alcohol. Years ago, I decided to not drink anymore period because I wanted to set a good example for my older brother who is an alcoholic. He still is drinking but I have abstained since 1992. I still love alcohol but I choose not to drink. I still love to smoke but I choose not to smoke. Today. I take it one day at a time.
This is one of the hardest things am attempting to do as I have been smoking for over 50 years. Hopefully, God will mitigate the damage I have caused to my body. Regardless, I have made God a partner in the recovery process.
My name is Jerry and I am an addict. Nicotine is my drug of choice but with God by my side I choose not to smoke.
No lie.
Today.