Hi ma'am, you have a question that every believer ponders, even worries and obsesses over throughout our walk. Each believer does have their own walk with our precious Lord and Savior, and what a wonderful walk it is. Jesus in Matthew 6:33 and tells us to seek Him first, I read a few comments of your question, I liked one, it was from the writer, because it was actually uplifting, we are simply to lift up, build up and comfort (1 Corinthians 14:3). To be a helper of another's joy (2 Corinthians 1:24), I also saw 1 Peter 3:15 being shared (notice it says when asked), and when asked, don't forget about what Philemon 1:6 tells us, because it's all about Jesus (2 Corinthians 3:5). Through Him we find who we are in Him. (Luke 17:20-21, Luke 21:15, John 15:5, Romans 8:16, 2 Corinthians 13:5,7, Ephesians 3:19,20, 2 Timothy 2:15, 1 John 2:20,27). And in our own seeking of Him we are to be overcomers, not only, of our own sufferings, but to come to know His sufferings as well, (Acts 14:22, Romans 8:18, 2 Corinthians 1:7, Philippians 1:29, Philippians 3:10,1 Thessalonians 3:4, 2 Thessalonians 1:5, 2 Timothy 3:12, 1 Peter 3:14, 1 Peter 4:13,16, 1 Peter 5:10). So, back to the question, the Bible doesn't say it's a sin, Jesus does tell Peter in John 21, 3 times even, if you love Me feed my sheep. Personally i don't think none of them really understood what He was saying until the day of Pentecost, even though He told them all in John 14:29 what was coming and it did, so we can see why He said to Thomas, in John 20:29, that very blessing for every believer to be blessed with, is to come to know, (to enter into) in their own walk is "His" love (Romans 5:5) and as afore mentioned in Ephesians 3:19, being filled with "His" fullness. Now back to Matthew 6:33, if you'll do this, even an ugly old crappy looking troll people will try to turn you into like me, will be rejoicing and knowing how precious in the sight of our beloved Lord and Savior is, God bless you in your own walk with Him.