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Yesterday I was writing a Pen Pal back. In order to answer one of the questions, I found myself talking about the problems my learning disability has caused me with work. Prior to that, I thought I had posted all the prayer requests that I was going to post. This is one more. This kinda tells you why I haven't left the job I'm currently in. You can pray however you want!
I’ve been at my job for 19 years. Next August it will be 20 years. I don’t particularly like my job but it’s a job that I’ve been able to hold down. It was really hard for me to get a job. When I was in School I didn’t know what I wanted to be. Due to my learning issues, and maybe even because I was bullied like crazy, I just wanted to survive school, and get out. Once I got out, I never wanted to go back! In fact I even suffered a small nervous break down, which I think all the bullying combined with working really hard, plus not having any friends that I could lean on, pushed me over the edge. Which could even be why I still suffer from an inferiority complex. I don’t know. Anyways, I had an interest in Electronics. So I took that for my last two years of High School. It was at a vocational school. After graduation, I took a year away from school and work. I volunteered at a Church as a sound man. I poured myself over sound system manuals, trying to learn the proper way to run the sound system for the Church. After three years of that, I finally tried to get a job. I started looking for an entry level job in electronics. I found one, and was there for 4 weeks, building circuit boards. My boss called me in, and told me, that “Your an Artist” “You do good work” but “Your too slow, so we are going to let you go”. That reminded me of how I felt in my classes at school.
About year later, I managed to get a job at a recreational vehicle factory. I was with 3 other workers who packed replacement parts. I was also there for just 4 weeks, and was called in, I was told, “You do good work, and they told me what they really liked about my work, but then they followed it up with, your too slow, and if you don’t speed up by the middle of next week we are going to let you go.” I replied, “I quit”. Next I got a job coach, who helped me figure out my resume, and took me places to try putting in applications. I had a few interviews. Nothing stuck until I tried at the School. They took me in, and I’ve been a Janitor ever since. I’ve tried to move from a 9 month position to a 12 month position, but my supervisor told me “He’s afraid that I wouldn’t work out”. That seems to be reoccurring theme in my life. Work my tail off, but I'm never good enough.
I’ve been at my job for 19 years. Next August it will be 20 years. I don’t particularly like my job but it’s a job that I’ve been able to hold down. It was really hard for me to get a job. When I was in School I didn’t know what I wanted to be. Due to my learning issues, and maybe even because I was bullied like crazy, I just wanted to survive school, and get out. Once I got out, I never wanted to go back! In fact I even suffered a small nervous break down, which I think all the bullying combined with working really hard, plus not having any friends that I could lean on, pushed me over the edge. Which could even be why I still suffer from an inferiority complex. I don’t know. Anyways, I had an interest in Electronics. So I took that for my last two years of High School. It was at a vocational school. After graduation, I took a year away from school and work. I volunteered at a Church as a sound man. I poured myself over sound system manuals, trying to learn the proper way to run the sound system for the Church. After three years of that, I finally tried to get a job. I started looking for an entry level job in electronics. I found one, and was there for 4 weeks, building circuit boards. My boss called me in, and told me, that “Your an Artist” “You do good work” but “Your too slow, so we are going to let you go”. That reminded me of how I felt in my classes at school.
About year later, I managed to get a job at a recreational vehicle factory. I was with 3 other workers who packed replacement parts. I was also there for just 4 weeks, and was called in, I was told, “You do good work, and they told me what they really liked about my work, but then they followed it up with, your too slow, and if you don’t speed up by the middle of next week we are going to let you go.” I replied, “I quit”. Next I got a job coach, who helped me figure out my resume, and took me places to try putting in applications. I had a few interviews. Nothing stuck until I tried at the School. They took me in, and I’ve been a Janitor ever since. I’ve tried to move from a 9 month position to a 12 month position, but my supervisor told me “He’s afraid that I wouldn’t work out”. That seems to be reoccurring theme in my life. Work my tail off, but I'm never good enough.
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