My friend, if you die with bitterness and hatred in you, you will not enter heaven. That is why we must repent of sin, and not let Satan lead us into condemnation. Pride always leads one into condemnation, but the Lord spares the humble. I know it.
We have to repent of sin, and anyone that is walking after the Spirit of God manifests these:
Gal 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Gal 5:23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
Gal 5:24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.
Are you Christ's?
May Jesus bless you.