Hi, Johnny. It is important to meet with Christians and be with other Believers. It's great that you're trying to do that and joining us here. As for going to services and your having issues with anxiety and meeting with people publicly in groups, it's got to be when you can handle things and not when people say you have to. It does no good if you're unhappy and struggling and trying to be in situations you can't handle just because people say you should. That's not fair to you, and you can only handle what you're able to.
I'll pray for you, and I'm sure if and when you are ready to try and go to services and be a part of that, you will try to do that. But don't force yourself to be in situations you're not ready for. Your anxieties are real issues, and you need to work through them and not be put in a situation where you're not ready to go all in and be in a group setting. There are always exceptions that prove the rule, and if you honestly are dealing emotionally with struggles that prevent you from being in groups, then it's understandable.
Btw, some churches have online services that allow Believers to join in from their PCs or cells. Maybe you can find out if local churches in your hometown or nearby have online services that you can join in from a link or a website. That can also help you take a step towards maybe getting comfortable with attending an in-person service at some point.😀