Seeking God has been my whole adult life.
Even when I played soccer it became an interaction with God.
There is nothing else to me.
This is not a hobby for me.
Sadly friend you don't know God, you have only studied religions of the world and built for yourself pseudo faith built upon the sand.
My prayer for you is that God will bring a storm into your life to destroy your pseudo beliefs the sand they are built upon so that you come to a place were you have to turn to that rock and build upon him Jesus Christ, the hope of our salvation.
All this talk of the spirit you know not of the spirit because the mission of the spirit is to turn all eyes and attention on him, the person of Jesus Christ. The only name, the only person by which all men can be saved. So we do have a different spirit as the spirit is the comforter to lead me and guide me to seek after Christ and to hope and trust in him as my eternal salvation. To deny all to forsake all just to know him the person Jesus Christ. God made into flesh who paid my price and his righteousness has made me in right standing.
I will be praying for that the blinders of deception be removed from your eyes and that God brings you to a place of acceptance or rejection.