Hello,
I just realized - I have absolutely nobody to talk to. No (older - or someone longer and stronger in the faith as I am) brother I could contact and ask.
I have been born again almost exactly 3 years ago and since then I'm pretty much on my own, because I couldn't find a suitable fellowship yet.
I know one, where I originally come from, but that is 500km away.
I spent my vacation on a tent evangelisation in my home region and that was prime Christian fellowship like I never experienced, a really very blessed time, BUT - I now face a challenge or rather question, because I encountered something.
At one point in those years I worked through the topic of divorced and re-marriage. (I'm divorced twice...)
And - although it included some sorrow - I came to the conclusion, that it is not for me any more. Although I know the argument, that some people think everything is washed clean through the new birth - I couldn't see that. We have to live with the consequences of our former decisions. And a walk with JESUS is not pain free and we are not guaranteed happiness.
The LORD freed me from any pain or difficulty to fight desires or lustful thoughts - it is really easy, I'm celibate and 100% chastely since then.
And reading Paul I see, I might be one of the blessed, for whom being alone is quite possible without pain or strain. I've always been a loner anyway and the worst and challenging times in my life have been relationships. So - that might be my path.
BUT I encountered something. A woman, a possibilty. It is not that I fell in love or was smitten. I don't look for suitable women for marriage and what I like I dismiss very quickly anyway, because that is always only rooted in beauty.
But I became aware, or rather was made aware that this woman likes me.
And now here I am, thinking about it since then and having no one to talk to, no advice from someone with a truly Christian perspective.
Thank for everything and God bless all of you!
I just realized - I have absolutely nobody to talk to. No (older - or someone longer and stronger in the faith as I am) brother I could contact and ask.
I have been born again almost exactly 3 years ago and since then I'm pretty much on my own, because I couldn't find a suitable fellowship yet.
I know one, where I originally come from, but that is 500km away.
I spent my vacation on a tent evangelisation in my home region and that was prime Christian fellowship like I never experienced, a really very blessed time, BUT - I now face a challenge or rather question, because I encountered something.
At one point in those years I worked through the topic of divorced and re-marriage. (I'm divorced twice...)
And - although it included some sorrow - I came to the conclusion, that it is not for me any more. Although I know the argument, that some people think everything is washed clean through the new birth - I couldn't see that. We have to live with the consequences of our former decisions. And a walk with JESUS is not pain free and we are not guaranteed happiness.
The LORD freed me from any pain or difficulty to fight desires or lustful thoughts - it is really easy, I'm celibate and 100% chastely since then.
And reading Paul I see, I might be one of the blessed, for whom being alone is quite possible without pain or strain. I've always been a loner anyway and the worst and challenging times in my life have been relationships. So - that might be my path.
BUT I encountered something. A woman, a possibilty. It is not that I fell in love or was smitten. I don't look for suitable women for marriage and what I like I dismiss very quickly anyway, because that is always only rooted in beauty.
But I became aware, or rather was made aware that this woman likes me.
And now here I am, thinking about it since then and having no one to talk to, no advice from someone with a truly Christian perspective.
Thank for everything and God bless all of you!
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