i don't think so. seems to me, you possibly are engaging in events with the wrong attitude & intentions. also, you should ask Jesus what His plan is for you. ambivolence has you under control. know that the devil has control of you. all Christians can simply cast out the devil immediately: James 4:7! Jesus should be #1 for all Christians meaning you want to think, speak & act like Jesus constantly: Matthew 5:48. but you can be overwhelmed in trying to hard. find that pleasing joyful cheery balance in life. it is clear here that you have to, "stop, look & listen". meaning, slow down big time, find your favorite place & talk with Jesus with no noise around. & don't rush! yes, being a Christian is different if your heart, mind, body, soul, conscious & spirit align with Jesus! study Romans 12:2, 1st John 3:20-22 John 14:13,14, John 16:13 & John 14:26. take a deep look into Hebrews 4:12