Blain's Testimony

[Scotty]

Oh, Blain!
Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. My heart goes out to you.
I'm at loss for words which doesn't happen to me often, lol.
But I will say that I will never understand why people have to go through the things like you went through and I will never understand why people would put others through things like that... especially their own children. However, what I do know is that we have a Father in heaven who loves you so very much and He wants the absolute best for you. I also know that God has a plan for you and your life and it's all in His timing.
I've read in other comments that there are people in your life who don't think very highly of you and they also don't share your love for God. I think perhaps you're in their lives to be a witness? Perhaps, I'll never know but I know for sure that you are definitely a light in the darkness, Blain.
Once again, thanks for sharing your testimony.
Hang in there, my friend!

 

[Marilyn]

`Not till the loom is silent, and the shuttle cease to fly,

Will God unfold His wisdom, and explain the reason why,

The dark threads are as needful, in the weaver`s skillful hands,

As the threads on gold and silver, in the pattern He has planned.`

 

[Marilyn]

I thought on the poem above in relation to your life Blain, and this is what I think -

The world is in darkness and only makes dark threads. Then when we turn to the Lord His `silver` of salvation brings forgiveness, and we see you forgiving too. Then the `gold,` is your faith, trust and belief in the Lord. So, the Lord brings these into stark contrast to the dark threads that tried to kill you, or make you bitter, but the Lord has made the pattern of your life a glorious picture.

`Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, (and that is all some people see of us) the inward man is being renewed day by day. ` (2 Cor. 4: 16)

all the best, bro, Marilyn.

 

[ebdesroches]

I wish people were blessed by my presence but honestly my family thinks im an idiot and they dont share my love for God. I remember how I would tell them about the love God and I share and pour my heart out and they would just look at me and think I was crazy, honestly the only family who seems to understand is my family here in cc. I was not given an understanding family in life and I cant tell you how even my foster family has screwed my and my life up because of them not being a good parent.

and trust me I am not exactly a good person either, I may have the right heart but I have done things that no Christian would ever do and honestly if I was a copy of me and didnt know I was and I saw and I heard of the things I did I would say he is no Christian. You all know my heart because I always speak it on here but in the outside world no one can know my heart because they would attack it and reject it. In the world outside the forums I have no one whom I can reveal what is truly in my heart and so they see the blain that is sort of going through the motions.

I hear them gossiping about others and It hurts me inside but I never let them know, I constantly see how they act and it saddens me. I know they talk bad about me I know they dont have one good thing to say about me and honestly because of some of the things I did I could understand but still I can read their hearts as if it was an open book, and its not good.

God told me in a dream a long time ago that I have to make them a loving and happy family because I longed for this so much but I have no idea how I am supposed to do that when they dont even listen to the simple things I say. I keep going I fight the good fight with an upbeat loving heart and attitude but the truth and reality of my life and my family is very sorrowful. I am not innocent in this but I am the one who gets hurt and is saddened because I know Jesus.

Life on this earth painful!

Blain doesn't live on the Earth all that often I see.

Even if you see him physically, the Master is loving Him with His close presence most of the time.

 

[Blain]

Life on this earth painful!

Blain doesn't live on the Earth all that often I see.

Even if you see him physically, the Master is loving Him with His close presence most of the time.

Oh my friend trust me all this was for a reason I was given one of the worst cards in life to start out with trust me rated R doesn't cover nit, but if life has given you a bad hand in life fight for a better one


If pain is a great teacher then learn from it take everything thrown at you and glean something from it use it to what the enemy meant for bad into something meant for good. As if asny suffering oor attacks from the enemy ever mattered to begin with how pitiful their attemps are when God has a;lready set in stone who we are tyo him as if any powers of hell had the nerve and delusion to think they had any say in all of this.

Peop;e talk about things like this yet we lack the faith to take him at his word that with faith anything is possible with God.

Just watch and see I will prove different I will be tyhe testimony of his great love and all knowing I am using my pain and my suffering even now as I only have 120 dollars to my name after rent he uses me to give even though I have so little and I am in constant health issues trust me even with what I speak on here you don't understand the gravity of the situation so many tyimes I have had to call 911 just for fluids and nutition even just a horrible sandwitch from the hospital was the best thing I ever ate.

Not to mention the whole eye situation IO cannot afford the ye drops needed for my eyes.

I have dealt with opposion in so many way that I cannot explain it in words here believe me none of you can understand the physical and mental and spiritual battles I have to constantly deal with how many times I have been near death but I speak of all thid not for attention but because even though I know all to well what real pain is what real suiffering it how no one ever seems to listens and I have no choice but to accept the consequences of others who I at this point have no choice but to rely on others I cannot even leave mt apartment because of my health and eyes.

And yet it doesn't tear me down it activates me I come on here because I legit found the truthy of all truths the real deal I am learning and being given hidden truths and treasures of the kingdom itself and so much I want to just pour it all into everyone here I found him I mean I really found him.

 

[Fundaamental]

Each scar tells it's story @Blain,
How you've managed to survive this is a miracle.

I know your testimony isn't the best but I do hope it's all behind you.

I just wish you where closer as I could help you so much.

i feel this is the reason the lord has shown you so much, and why the lord has given you so much insight into his world that you often share with us.

because he loves you so much, it's probably the only way a person can be kept alive and have hope to keep pushing through and want to keep on living, as to why the lord as took you on the journeys he has.

and given you the invites and insight he has.

Because all tho your scars may be something you can now handle, scars like yours don't dispear.

To each person he gives a measure of faith.

But to some he gives much more,

Your one of the people blain, a treasure to the lord and us.

See you soon bro ❤️

 

[ebdesroches]

To Blain, Lover of God

Glorious is the Lord that when scars are smitten
Over the scars His flaming love is written

We don't understand and never could
Why these wounds are given or should

But by faith a beautiful heart as a flower opens
To the Master who cannot stop loving us with sweet words to us spoken

 

[homwardbound]

I havent made a testimony because ppl hardly even read testimonies let alone post in them but I figured I might as well.
I guess it begins when I was with my mom and dad, as a young kid as long as I could remember they were always abusive and starved me severely. I was always hungry and I was treated like a slave, I did all sorts of chores and for no reason at all they would hurt me. I had to clean the carpet with nothing but water and a tooth brush and they hit me a lot. I remember they would sit in a circle and I had to take my pants off and one by one they would stab my in the but with a sowing needle. there was one time they made me eat a cockroach another they made me eat my sisters poop another they made me drink my uncles throw up.

There was another time my mom cut my bottom with a knife and said the blood coming out was demons and scared me. my mom would sometimes make special pancakes for me, she would make pancakes crunch up lots of pills and say they were sprinkles and drench it in syrup. I knew I would black out if i ate it but i never get to eat good so I did it no problem.

Basically I had a terrible child hood, and I dont even remember the worst parts, when I was taken away at age eight apparently my parents spilled the beans of all they did and I was put in a foster home. my foster mom still wont tell me the parts I dont remember she said it was to gruesome and horrible for me to handle all i know is that they sexually abused me and lots of horrible things that my mind apparently cant remember because they starved me so bad and they drugged so much that I somehow had brain damage. at the age of eight I was the size of a four year old due to not being fed good so I had to eat a whole lot so my body could gradually catch up

I was put in a good foster home, the dad was a real jerk but i dont hold grudges. I had already forgiven my real parents I am not able to stay mad at someone trust me I have tried. I had 4 good years although I had medical issues they werent that bad but then I got cancer luekemia, its a deadly blood cancer. Cancer of course is no joy ride, you have to go through so much stuff like radiation and chemo therapy you get stuck with needles a whole lot and you get more medical issues from the radiation and it damages your body. I had it for four years but finally it was in remission meaning its basically asleep but can come back at any time. to this day I still suffer from the cancer and the damage it did to my body, I have many health issue I received another dose of brain damage and I now have diabetes. I even for some reason get this horrible pain in my nerves and bones.

People say I am brave and strong for fighting and beating cancer, but im not because I didnt do anything it was all because of the doctors help that I am even alive. there were a couple times i almost died and they saved me. all I did was put up with it.

I eventually graduated high school but because I cant drive due to the brain damage I cannot go to work as there is not a place to work in walking distance and plus I have trouble remembering simple things and following simple commands. So I live with my mom and in all likely hood will for the rest of my life because I have no way of earning money and cant live on my own. But anyways I was saved two years ago and it was the best decision I ever made, my family doesnt think I will ever amount to much or be anyone special but God says that I can and will

the mysterious ways of the allowance of God to us all, the people to choose to do good or bad to others. Amazing Grace that is and gets given and seen from those abused and abusers, that I know God continues to love in mercy and truth to give them too, does it somehow. Amazing to me how God can take it all in and use it to get people that have been abused as well as those that have abused and show them ,his love above all others in this world to turn from a stone heart to a new Heart

I am elated, you have decided to stand in belief to God in risen Son for you Brother, hoping for all others also


Ezekiel 36:24-30

Authorized (King James) Version

24 For I will take you from among the heathen, and gather you out of all countries, and will bring you into your own land.
25 Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and ye shall be clean: from all your filthiness, and from all your idols, will I cleanse you. 26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. 27 And I will put my spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes, and ye shall keep my judgments, and do them. 28 And ye shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and ye shall be my people, and I will be your God. 29 I will also save you from all your uncleannesses: and I will call for the corn, and will increase it, and lay no famine upon you. 30 And I will multiply the fruit of the tree, and the increase of the field, that ye shall receive no more reproach of famine among the heathen.

 

[Karlon]

I havent made a testimony because ppl hardly even read testimonies let alone post in them but I figured I might as well.
I guess it begins when I was with my mom and dad, as a young kid as long as I could remember they were always abusive and starved me severely. I was always hungry and I was treated like a slave, I did all sorts of chores and for no reason at all they would hurt me. I had to clean the carpet with nothing but water and a tooth brush and they hit me a lot. I remember they would sit in a circle and I had to take my pants off and one by one they would stab my in the but with a sowing needle. there was one time they made me eat a cockroach another they made me eat my sisters poop another they made me drink my uncles throw up.

There was another time my mom cut my bottom with a knife and said the blood coming out was demons and scared me. my mom would sometimes make special pancakes for me, she would make pancakes crunch up lots of pills and say they were sprinkles and drench it in syrup. I knew I would black out if i ate it but i never get to eat good so I did it no problem.

Basically I had a terrible child hood, and I dont even remember the worst parts, when I was taken away at age eight apparently my parents spilled the beans of all they did and I was put in a foster home. my foster mom still wont tell me the parts I dont remember she said it was to gruesome and horrible for me to handle all i know is that they sexually abused me and lots of horrible things that my mind apparently cant remember because they starved me so bad and they drugged so much that I somehow had brain damage. at the age of eight I was the size of a four year old due to not being fed good so I had to eat a whole lot so my body could gradually catch up

I was put in a good foster home, the dad was a real jerk but i dont hold grudges. I had already forgiven my real parents I am not able to stay mad at someone trust me I have tried. I had 4 good years although I had medical issues they werent that bad but then I got cancer luekemia, its a deadly blood cancer. Cancer of course is no joy ride, you have to go through so much stuff like radiation and chemo therapy you get stuck with needles a whole lot and you get more medical issues from the radiation and it damages your body. I had it for four years but finally it was in remission meaning its basically asleep but can come back at any time. to this day I still suffer from the cancer and the damage it did to my body, I have many health issue I received another dose of brain damage and I now have diabetes. I even for some reason get this horrible pain in my nerves and bones.

People say I am brave and strong for fighting and beating cancer, but im not because I didnt do anything it was all because of the doctors help that I am even alive. there were a couple times i almost died and they saved me. all I did was put up with it.

I eventually graduated high school but because I cant drive due to the brain damage I cannot go to work as there is not a place to work in walking distance and plus I have trouble remembering simple things and following simple commands. So I live with my mom and in all likely hood will for the rest of my life because I have no way of earning money and cant live on my own. But anyways I was saved two years ago and it was the best decision I ever made, my family doesnt think I will ever amount to much or be anyone special but God says that I can and will

this is the 1st time i've seen this. majorly sad! i feel quite sorry for you. you seem to own a resilience to be thru the past. i wish you well in every way. may Jesus bless you often forever. around here, i & my brothers endured the worst childhood out of anyone. we went thru some of the same hurt as you. when i became Christian in 1993, immediately Jesus put forgiveness in my thoughts. & i forgave my parents immediately.

 

[Blain]

this is the 1st time i've seen this. majorly sad! i feel quite sorry for you. you seem to own a resilience to be thru the past. i wish you well in every way. may Jesus bless you often forever. around here, i & my brothers endured the worst childhood out of anyone. we went thru some of the same hurt as you. when i became Christian in 1993, immediately Jesus put forgiveness in my thoughts. & i forgave my parents immediately.

That pain you endured will come as blessings for every tear you shed riches will abound for every scar inside and out angels will mend and wash this pain you knew will hwlp you to connect to and help those who have known the same kind of paiin

Bless you my friend your a treasure

 

[Karlon]

That pain you endured will come as blessings for every tear you shed riches will abound for every scar inside and out angels will mend and wash this pain you knew will hwlp you to connect to and help those who have known the same kind of paiin

Bless you my friend your a treasure

thank you big time. in some ways, Jesus turned my beatings into making me to be strong thru adversity & forging forward with a Christ like attitude.

 

[Blain]

thank you big time. in some ways, Jesus turned my beatings into making me to be strong thru adversity & forging forward with a Christ like attitude.

I have often said pain is a great teacher
and enduring pain does make you stronger especially with Christ who know maybe your testimony is mean for someone here as well

 

[j55]

Hello blain. Im sorry you went through that. Had experienced bad things. With sincerest words, and love, my heart goes out to you. It took much courage to share your testimony. I experienced much bullying back when I was in special education, through school system. Some of them were trying to tear down special education people. There was senior in Auto Dept, who bullied me for almost year. These bullys saw those who had disability as inferior. One girl had problem. She would zone out in the cafeteria. Looking up at the ceiling. The school teacher aid, had to gently get her out of it. I don't know what was wrong. Only Jesus knows. One student lied about me to another student. This person hated me, until he privately talked to me. The truth came out in the end.
Middle school. During gym, did cross country. Little by little, I was catching up to tall German kid. He was really good. I was on his heels, when cross country ended. Told me privately, he admired my determination, and I was improving. Here's wisdom.
Tearing others down by our speech and judge mental attitudes is sin. Because it demonstrate total disregard and contempt. Its, I'm better than you are . This is Pride. And Pride is sin. Proverbs, Reckless words pierce like sword, but the tongue of the wise bring healing.
Words can be hurtful, and cause some pain. We can't take back a bullet from gun, once its discharged. It can damage relationships and cause deep wounds.
Proverbs chapter 8
Fear of the Lord is to hate evil. Hate Pride and arrogance.
8:15
The Lord detests all the proud of heart. Be sure of this, they will not go unpunished.
Call pride the cancer of the soul. Its rebellion against God. What is the character quality between pride and humility. Pride is self worship. What's sad, Pride rots sway there heart, and in stubborn ness, won't repent, they can't admit or recognize thier sinful behavior. And pride is the heart of prejudice.
Romans chapter 12
Don't think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of your self, measuring yourself by the faith God has given us.
James chapter 4:6
God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble. Pride blinds us to our own faults, makes us resistant to correction, and create false sense of self sufficiency. It can lead to other sins, envy, anger,or dishonesty.
What route do we want to go. Prejudice or humility.
Take care my friend. Peace.

 

[Blain]

Hello blain. Im sorry you went through that. Had experienced bad things. With sincerest words, and love, my heart goes out to you. It took much courage to share your testimony. I experienced much bullying back when I was in special education, through school system. Some of them were trying to tear down special education people. There was senior in Auto Dept, who bullied me for almost year. These bullys saw those who had disability as inferior. One girl had problem. She would zone out in the cafeteria. Looking up at the ceiling. The school teacher aid, had to gently get her out of it. I don't know what was wrong. Only Jesus knows. One student lied about me to another student. This person hated me, until he privately talked to me. The truth came out in the end.
Middle school. During gym, did cross country. Little by little, I was catching up to tall German kid. He was really good. I was on his heels, when cross country ended. Told me privately, he admired my determination, and I was improving. Here's wisdom.
Tearing others down by our speech and judge mental attitudes is sin. Because it demonstrate total disregard and contempt. Its, I'm better than you are . This is Pride. And Pride is sin. Proverbs, Reckless words pierce like sword, but the tongue of the wise bring healing.
Words can be hurtful, and cause some pain. We can't take back a bullet from gun, once its discharged. It can damage relationships and cause deep wounds.
Proverbs chapter 8
Fear of the Lord is to hate evil. Hate Pride and arrogance.
8:15
The Lord detests all the proud of heart. Be sure of this, they will not go unpunished.
Call pride the cancer of the soul. Its rebellion against God. What is the character quality between pride and humility. Pride is self worship. What's sad, Pride rots sway there heart, and in stubborn ness, won't repent, they can't admit or recognize thier sinful behavior. And pride is the heart of prejudice.
Romans chapter 12
Don't think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of your self, measuring yourself by the faith God has given us.
James chapter 4:6
God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble. Pride blinds us to our own faults, makes us resistant to correction, and create false sense of self sufficiency. It can lead to other sins, envy, anger,or dishonesty.
What route do we want to go. Prejudice or humility.
Take care my friend. Peace.

I appreciate your kind words and your testimony I was also bullied as a child I had cancer and was bald so kids made fun of me for it and in special ed as well I feel for you but even though I went through so much look at me now full of hope and the joy of the Lord many blessings to you and yours my precious friend

 

[Crazyjmill]

Man I pray to have your strength after reading your testimony. I love your title to, The Word Weaver.

 

[Crazyjmill]

It is amazing to me that even down the darkest alleys our life turns God can still find us.

 

[Crazyjmill]

Our darkest hours seem to give us a better appreciation for when there is light.

 

[Blain]

Man I pray to have your strength after reading your testimony. I love your title to, The Word Weaver.

I cannot take any credit God was with me through it all and even in the fiery trials I have had since then. and yeah the word weaver is because I write poems inspired from the spirit

 

[Karlon]

Our darkest hours seem to give us a better appreciation for when there is light.

we mostly, learn thru adversity, especially if someone is honest, accountablr, responsible & reliable.