Thank you! There's just so much pain!!! My Mom was sick before she died and I was her caregiver. The enemy would taunt me about the job I did. Then, I'll think about her and it's like my whole heart is breaking in to. We were very close! She was instrumental in my becoming a Christian. I keep calling on Jesus!!! Sometimes, I'll wake up snd be paralyzed in fear, so I dread going to sleep. My stepdad, who in my heart was.my
Dad passed last June, so I lost both parents in less than six months. I had applied for an early retirement so that Mom and my check would be enough for our expenses. I didn't want her to go to a home and she was basically bedridden. Now, with just my check, I don't have enough for my mortgage. I am looking for supplemental work. So I'm alone in a big house just trying to survive. I try and get out some and I do go to church. Besides church, little interests me!