I will tell you the truth. I'm feeling very conflicted at the moment. I was led to believe to take a step out in radical faith. Acknowledging I didn't have all the knowledge to do what it takes to succeed in my new business venture as an insurance agency owner after a 25 year career in commercial real estate.
I had several dreams over (15) which I "interpreted" to be from the Lord. In fact 3 times I asked the Lord if these dreams were from him and 3 times I believe he told me they were. However, our interpretations of dreams may or may not be correct, the bible and the word is final say on these type of matters. The bible says I need to work and to make money and to provide. I tell you the truth, sometimes it's just not easy to go "all in" when you have responsibilities, this path (maybe self inflicted), is 100x easier as single person, no worries about kids, families, obligations. You felt led to be a missionary in Africa... just go. Do it. Let go and let God, you hear this all the time. Horrible advice.
I finally got some good advice, and it came from an Orthodox priest online who quoted St. Agustine of Hippo.
"pray like everything depends on God, but WORK.. like everything depends on you."
I have to admit I have been passive, expecting some divine help from the Lord in opening doors I can't open, giving me wisdom I didn't have.
Take a bold step out, big step out in faith.. when I didn't know all the pieces.
Here is the thing, a little bit of knowledge of the word can be dangerous, very dangerous. We've all heard the story of Mary and Martha. Martha was busy working hard prepping for the party and Mary is chilling at Jesus feet the better portion, or so I thought. But actually, it's not the work that Jesus is correcting her but it's the complaining... I always thought the teaching was to seek God first and the rest would take care of itself.
God isnt a genie...my mistake is that I relied too much on God, leaned in too hard on faith, I did too little on diligence and planning.
Now I'm course correcting, and looking back and apply for work in my old career and also trying to build my insurance agency until I can find work.
I prayed fervently to the Lord asking why I'm going on this goose chase and I had a dream of an episode of fight to survive where the guy or preacher got his foot stuck in a rock on a hike and died. A faithful servant who make a mistake an honest mistake and paid for his life (he really needed a sat phone) when hiking alone. I don't know if this was God telling me, I know what I'm doing even when it means death, but I took it to mean a couple of things. 1) free will and consequences 2) God will bail you out or he may not ; up to his will which we never know.
In summary, unbridled all out faith can be dangerous, it needs to be balanced or you will burn out quick and lose faith.
Please pray for me and my families provision.
Thank you
I had several dreams over (15) which I "interpreted" to be from the Lord. In fact 3 times I asked the Lord if these dreams were from him and 3 times I believe he told me they were. However, our interpretations of dreams may or may not be correct, the bible and the word is final say on these type of matters. The bible says I need to work and to make money and to provide. I tell you the truth, sometimes it's just not easy to go "all in" when you have responsibilities, this path (maybe self inflicted), is 100x easier as single person, no worries about kids, families, obligations. You felt led to be a missionary in Africa... just go. Do it. Let go and let God, you hear this all the time. Horrible advice.
I finally got some good advice, and it came from an Orthodox priest online who quoted St. Agustine of Hippo.
"pray like everything depends on God, but WORK.. like everything depends on you."
I have to admit I have been passive, expecting some divine help from the Lord in opening doors I can't open, giving me wisdom I didn't have.
Take a bold step out, big step out in faith.. when I didn't know all the pieces.
Here is the thing, a little bit of knowledge of the word can be dangerous, very dangerous. We've all heard the story of Mary and Martha. Martha was busy working hard prepping for the party and Mary is chilling at Jesus feet the better portion, or so I thought. But actually, it's not the work that Jesus is correcting her but it's the complaining... I always thought the teaching was to seek God first and the rest would take care of itself.
God isnt a genie...my mistake is that I relied too much on God, leaned in too hard on faith, I did too little on diligence and planning.
Now I'm course correcting, and looking back and apply for work in my old career and also trying to build my insurance agency until I can find work.
I prayed fervently to the Lord asking why I'm going on this goose chase and I had a dream of an episode of fight to survive where the guy or preacher got his foot stuck in a rock on a hike and died. A faithful servant who make a mistake an honest mistake and paid for his life (he really needed a sat phone) when hiking alone. I don't know if this was God telling me, I know what I'm doing even when it means death, but I took it to mean a couple of things. 1) free will and consequences 2) God will bail you out or he may not ; up to his will which we never know.
In summary, unbridled all out faith can be dangerous, it needs to be balanced or you will burn out quick and lose faith.
Please pray for me and my families provision.
Thank you
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