Where Im at Right Now

[Shoshie]

Yesterday, was an extremely difficult day!!! You all know the struggles I have shared. I was given real encouragement from a live chat with someone from a major ministry which helped an awful lot but there was still some struggles. For hours I cried out to the Lord. When I awoke today, I knew I was on the way home. I was saved and forgiven but I needed to be fully renewed. Ive been seeking Him on this! I know Ive been angry over my Mom's death. I know that this is quite normal and as many Christians have told me, the Lord can handle our anger. I dont want to stay there but Im releasing it to Him.
What I cant seem to forgive myself for is what I perceive as neglect in caregiving of my Mom. I wonder, however, did I really neglect her in sone way or is the enemy using my clouded, grief-stricken mind to confuse me. I just want to know the truth and find a way to live in peace.
I also had extetmibator come and work on bedbugs but still feeling sone bites. Dont know if it's just psychological or just didn't get them all but Id love to live in clean house again and feel totally clean even though Im taking multiple baths most days. Please pray re: these three issues, completely restored relationship with the Lord and dealing with anger/hurt, knowing the truth about my Mom and being able to bear it, and being rid of bed bugs. People are coming across my path who dont know Jesus and who have major hurts. Id lije to help them as so man

 

[tourist]

Good night. Sleep tight. Don't let the bed bugs bite.

 

[DeanM]

Bedbugs can go a long time without eating so they can hide out. Hotshot makes a fogger and a spray that seems to help and diatumaceous earth kills any bug that crawls though it. Drys the moisture out of them.. Its a long battle with bedbugs. Keep at it.

 

[HealthAndHappiness]

Yesterday, was an extremely difficult day!!! You all know the struggles I have shared. I was given real encouragement from a live chat with someone from a major ministry which helped an awful lot but there was still some struggles. For hours I cried out to the Lord. When I awoke today, I knew I was on the way home. I was saved and forgiven but I needed to be fully renewed. Ive been seeking Him on this! I know Ive been angry over my Mom's death. I know that this is quite normal and as many Christians have told me, the Lord can handle our anger. I dont want to stay there but Im releasing it to Him.
What I cant seem to forgive myself for is what I perceive as neglect in caregiving of my Mom. I wonder, however, did I really neglect her in sone way or is the enemy using my clouded, grief-stricken mind to confuse me. I just want to know the truth and find a way to live in peace.
I also had extetmibator come and work on bedbugs but still feeling sone bites. Dont know if it's just psychological or just didn't get them all but Id love to live in clean house again and feel totally clean even though Im taking multiple baths most days. Please pray re: these three issues, completely restored relationship with the Lord and dealing with anger/hurt, knowing the truth about my Mom and being able to bear it, and being rid of bed bugs. People are coming across my path who dont know Jesus and who have major hurts. Id lije to help them as so man

Shoshie,

You should bookmark this and subscribe to his channel. He provides what seems to be good solutions and really wants to help others with this issue.

 

[crmvet]

Philippians 4:19

 

[jacko]

i read your post and that burden is not for you to carry. You have no control over when the Lord takes any of us.

I also felt a tremendous burden as my mom and dad are not saved. I don't understand why the Lord has not opened their eyes to the truth, but the Lord has put in my heart that this his duty, not mine.