My number 1 goal in life is to one day be a husband and a father. I am 36 years of age now. It is a desire that I feel absolutly burn in my heart but in a wonderful sort of way it is not an inordinate effection or the least bit wrong to desire it in the way I do. If anything it seems to draw me closer to God. I even had a dream one night that I was looking at a calender and it had the year 2099 on it. Making me 109 and I was surrounded by a huge family of several generations of my offspring. I did not know it until later about 2 years that my biblical name sake Joshua lived to be 110 and died in the same wonderful way surrounded by family and people he fought alongside with. I do not take this as a sign that I will live to be 110 but I think he is saying I will be happy and I will be filled and I am not done just yet.
