I have no idea if I have been living up to these words lately. I feel the need to post that.
Sometimes I feel that I am so vulnerable that I feel that spiritually in Christ I need a marriage "partner" to help me through, and I have been pursuing a girl that reminds me of righteousness...but I am so childlike and try to be pure in everything I do/say to her that I say little right now, and get confused often by my own actions.
I am at a point where I have some friends telling me to "just get the courage and ask her out because God wants me to" and other friends who think "dating is wrong, and distracting to seeking Christ" so that I should just focus more on seeking Christ and let be what God will be.
I do not know what to pursue, so I am somewhat lost in the middle. I find myself wanting holiness, and I pray that she stays holy, but at the same time, I find myself wanting to get to know HER...
Some of my more devout friends seem to think personal dialogue with girls can be a temptation and restrict themselves to community dates, but I have never followed such a rigid viewpoint.
But at the same time I have never kissed a girl/woman though I have had opportunities, and now want to save even that for the girl I will marry.
I almost feel as Paul wrote in Corinthians?, where he wrote about "not understanding his own actions." Or how Jesus write about those led by the Spirit being there one moment and gone the next...
I have made decisions lately about only looking/seeking righteousness such as only marrying a virgin (say what you will about that) and not accepting unrighteousness as a form of 'forgiveness' as I have done in the past. As the Psalm say "as for the saints who are in the land, they are glorious ones in whom I delight."
Now I find myself hoping and praying for the righteousness of my sisters in Christ, and hoping those who don't know Him find Him--which I think to be something worth seeking in and for a girl.
God bless you now and always
tony