Lovesong Poetry

[Wolf]

For my guy,

I just want you to know
that I don't want you to think
I am forcing you to be Christian,
you really can't force anyone anyway,
its always about choice.

However, I just kind of thought,
you don't have too many people saying
that kind of word over you that blesses you
these days. I've noticed.

I just want you to know, that no matter what you
do or what you chose for yourself,
I love you, I just want to do what I can
with what I know that might bless you.

​

 

[Wolf]

Today was an interesting day,

I got baptized in water, I felt really good afterward. I guess my reason was
to get a closer relationship with God, more than what I have now.
I think its kind of cool because I think Jesus was 30 when he got baptized. hehe

Then I went to the fair and I rode an elephant with my sister,
I laughed through the whole deal, I felt like a kid, I had a lot of fun.

When I left the fair that "Poker Face" Song came on by Lady Gaga XD hehe.
I thought that was funny, because it reminded me of my poem.

 

[Wolf]

He Calls his Sheep by Name
From: John 10:6-10 (The Message Bible)

Jesus told this simple story,
but they had no idea what he was talking about.
So he tried again.


"I'll be explicit, then.

I am the Gate for the sheep.
All those others are up to no good—sheep stealers,
every one of them.
But the sheep didn't listen to them.

I am the Gate.
Anyone who goes through me will be cared for—
will freely go in and out, and find pasture.

A thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy.
I came so they can have real and eternal life,
more and better life than they ever dreamed of.​

 

[Wolf]

I follow Jesus Christ, I hold onto him, if I let go he will hold on and
no one will snatch me from his hand, for once i am saved I am saved.-me
This feels like my life story and personal anthem hehe.

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8welVgKX8Qo[/video]

In Christ Alone
written by: Stuart Townend, Keith Getty

In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.

No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.​

 

[Wolf]

 

[Wolf]

I could hear the chorus of this song in my head,
so I thought I'd write it down.

Heaven's Gate
by: Lowanla (me)

I am the way to Heaven
there is no other way
I am the gate to Heaven
grab hold of me this day

Beneath you the ground is crumbling
and everyones telling you different things
in me you shall live
in me you shall your foot firmly stand

I am the way to Heaven
there is no other way
I am the gate to Heaven
grab hold of me this day

I am the way,
I am the way,
Just call on my name

Jesus

​

 

[Wolf]

Can I ask you guys to keep my younger brother in your prayers,
he's been going through really hard times for about 5-6 years,
he had to go to the hospital. ...This song reminds me of him..

While I'm Waiting
Lyrics by: John Waller

John Waller "While I'm Waiting" feat. scenes from FIREPROOF - YouTube

I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait

I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it's not easy no, but faithfully I will wait
Yes, I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait

I will move ahead bold and confident
I'll be taking every step in obedience, yeah

While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint

And I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You Lord

I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting

​

 

[PopClick]

Can I ask you guys to keep my younger brother in your prayers,
he's been going through really hard times for about 5-6 years,
he had to go to the hospital.

Sure, I will. And I'll pray for you too, since I bet this has been stressful. <3

 

[Wolf]

Sure, I will. And I'll pray for you too, since I bet this has been stressful. <3

Thanks! Yeah it can get pretty stressful, I guess I never say anything about it because I have always tried to be the strong one while everyone else around me fell a part, I react in different ways though, I get depressed all at once, I didn't know it was okay to be weak.

*hugs*

 

[Wolf]

When I am weak then my God is strong, I look strong but I am really the
weakest person in the world...

Everyone that I love, including my family and the one I love hang onto me,
they see me as a source of strength at times..

Who I hang onto is ..Jesus because that is where my strength has always come from.

Hold Me Together
Lyrics by: Royal Tailor

ROYAL TAILOR - HOLD ME TOGETHER - YouTube

Hello Mercy
I have been searching for you lately
I've been wounded and from what I hear
You have the remedy

They told me You would be for me
So now I need to know
Is this a love that can save me
Or say You will then don't
Will You stay with me when nobody is around
If this is real, then tell me now

Can you hold me together
Can your love reach down this far
Can you hold me together
Cause without You holding my heart
I'm falling apart
Falling apart

Saying so long, been lost, been gone
Not sure what to pray
It's not easy but I know You see me
When I lose my way

I keep on floating not knowing
If there is more for me
Don't want to sink beneath waves of negativity
I'm going under
I'm afraid that I might drown
If this is real
I need you now

Can you hold me together
Can your love reach down this far
Can you hold me together
'Cause without You holding my heart
I'm falling apart
Falling apart
Oh, Lord

I'm feeling stronger
With you by my side
And I realize you are my hope
I need to know

Can you hold me together
Can your love reach down this far
Can you hold me together
'Cause without You holding my heart
I'm falling apart
Falling apart
Hold me together Lord

Without You
I'm falling apart
Falling apart​

 

[Wolf]

Sky Star
by: Lowanla (me)

Life is no myth and it isn't a beautiful lie
nor is beauty expressed from the heart
as we dance hand in hand closely atop a hill
each sky star reflects the candles
in each of our hearts,
I miss you as I am with you
when you reach your hand out for me
to express your love so earnestly
is it okay to love you back?
because I love you already,
within this readily receiving broken heart
I feel as if I would sacrifice it daily
just because I need your
happy connection,
please never go away,
to far from this adoring
readily receiving broken heart,
who is happy to be broken
by another broken heart for me.
Let us mix the broken pieces to create
one heart and share it
with the star sky.
with you..
I am happy.

​

 

[Wolf]

Last night my younger sister had a biblical story type of dream, that I will explain after this,
I believe that any dream of warning that God sends us is never of doom and gloom, but of mercy always,
that he knows everything we go through, because he is good and his mercy endures forever. She heard this song in her dream.

Savin' Me
Nickelback - Savin&#39; Me - YouTube

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus:]
Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

Hurry I'm fallin'
​

 

[Wolf]

My sisters dream:

"The Torso Man" A story of Gluttony (Excess)

This man spent his entire life working out, lifting weights
surrounded by a crowd of people. He loved the attention so much,
from all the hard work he spent his life on.
the people started to look at him oddly and finally pulled him away
from the weight lifting, when they did they realized
he was just a torso. He could not walk anymore, this was how much
he never paid attention to his own self.
because he had forgotten about ever stopping and taking care of himself.

As he was lifting weights that Nickelback song was playing.
"Saving Me" (a very cool band btw! God uses things he know will relate to us.)

I think its important when we get dreams like this from God to never,
brush them off but to take his advice because he loves us
and wants us to live.

For the Lord is good, and his Mercy endures forever.
​

 

[Wolf]

You know..
no one would blame you
if you wanted to walk away from
what you are overwhelming yourself with
in order to help yourself
at least for awhile..

the greatest ministry one can have
in their life time
is to help themselves before they help others
that's how I get through
that's why I look so strong,
is when I stop and admit I am weak,
and I need help, because everyone needs help.

..I care about your life. I don't want anything
bad to happen to you..
I know that I might only be 'this' to you,
but I still love you, I care for you too.

​

 

[Wolf]

As I was thinking about you, which I always do, this song came up,
this is how I feel.. I couldn't love you more.


I couldn't Love you more
Artist: Matt Hammitt

In the night
He is with you
At morning light
He is with You
Do not fear
For He is with you
When I'm not here
He is with you

I couldn't love you more
I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
But somebody does
Jesus

Rest your eyes
He is with you
I pray you find
He is with you
When I let go
He is with you
And I can know
That He is with you

I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
But somebody does
Jesus

You are mine for a moment
But you are His
Forever His
And in this life
I am holding You
But in His arms you live

I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
No, I couldn't love you more
Oh, but somebody does
Jesus
​

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fSGIgkyguQ[/video]

 

[Wolf]

It doesn't matter what anyone else says or knows, it only matters that my God
knows what I go through if it only be him alone, his word is all that matters,
he is more than enough to get me through everything I go through,
and he will get me through it.

Jeremiah 29:11 (a song for my guy)
by: Lowanla (me)

God only asked me to give what I could
with a joyful heart.
A heart of love but sometimes its too much.
When things are crumbling all around me
as I'm walking down the street
My eyes fixed on the cross.
My feet are now bleeding, and I'm so tired,
Lord tell me again..

Do I mean something?
am I worth living?

He said..

For I know the plans I have for you,
They are plans for good and not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope.

Could it be with so little miles left running in me
that you hold my future in your hand?
What if all this time I fell out of line,
far away from you, could there be hope?
Do you still love me Lord?

He said

For I know the plans I have for you,
They are plans for good and not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope.

Hope,
for you Love me Lord.

​

 

[Wolf]

You're very good at making
people feel sorry for you
You use to be good at making
me feel guilty...
You pulled me into something
I should say forced me into something
I never wanted or should have
been a part of in the first place

so I tried my best to help you,
what what little you gave me,
I let you treat me like garbage,
while you ran around with
any woman you wanted to be with..

I let you manipulate me into thinking
that all of this is all my fault,

I didn't want to change you,
I don't want to change you!
I just wanted to show you what
helped me out in my life,
hoping you might grab hold of it,
and try to help yourself..

I hate to say this but I have to..

If you love someone
change has to happen, if its for
something good, like love..
If you love yourself,
change has to happen,
in order to help yourself
if you love someone who loves you
and cares about your well being,
then change has to happen,
growing up has to happen..and so on.

I don't want to see nothing bad happen to you,
and i don't want to have anything to do with
anything bad happening to you!

I'm gonna do my best just to ignore you
when you whine and cry around about
how I hurt you, and how 'cruel' I was to you..
and how you will

"Never find true love"

not with that attitude of course you won't,
unless she's a robot who mindlessly follows you,
wherever you go..

​

 

[Wolf]

if I didn't believe in you I would not care
but I do care about you.
I care enough to see a future where you can't,
I already know you set me up to fail,
I already know about you,
I feel what you felt, or at least some of it,
yet I'm still here.
Why do you fight to keep me,
but you keep me at a distance?
because I am only convenience
its not love and you do not love me,
its the truth.
That's another part of love
facing the truth.
The truth is... if you loved me truly
you would have wanted me to be happy
how can I be happy in a lie.
I am not the one hiding here.
You want me around, you have to make a choice,
bring me into your life, or let me go,
either way
I figured you out more than three times.
I don't like doing this,
I've tried it your way,
are you afraid I will embarrass you?
Yeah ..I probably will,
because I'm not up to your standards,
and that is another truth.
the truth is
I'm only convenience,
you do not love me.
You would have been with me a long time ago.
but it was me who waited around for you.
and that is the truth.
​

 

[Wolf]

Its not right no matter how either of us
make it sound.
Whatever you are doing.
for this relationship,
whatever this is,
is separate from the spiritual aspect,
I am doing my best to keep you separate from
my belief.

If I write a song or a prayer,
I suppose its my 'hopes' that you
become healed and made whole again,
that's all.

just so you know that's how I see you.
What I'm saying is,

If I were with you, it would be just to be with you
as you are. I know i can't change you,
and I don't want you to change me,
I like being me.

I wish this could be made right somehow,
I guess I want to be with you because,
you said you loved me a million times,
you made me believe you loved me
all these years, and yet
when I got close you sort of closed yourself off.

Even with that said,
it still doesn't feel right, because of distance.

there is nothing wrong with you..
there's something about having a whole
entire person who loves you in front of you,

I guess that's whats wrong with us..

I need that. I wish you would understand,
and consider that at least..

​

 

[Wolf]

I can feel it
when you feel bad or feel sad,
when I say 'you don't love me',
then I feel bad because I made you
feel bad,
because that lets me know,
you have an earnest heart for me,
you do love me,
It must be our close empathy.
I can be stupid and accuse you at times,
I never had a relationship that lasted this long,
you already know.

Someday we'll be together
it will be okay.
You know you can have what you say.
You can create your future that way,
did you know that?
So I have always tried to say
good over you
because I love you,
I don't agree with your negative
fateful words
I am stubborn that way
I will fight them to my dying day
I love you to life.

I know you hate me for rejecting you
in fear and then pushing you away.
I know I hurt you back then,
and I am sorry.
I didn't know how to handle
what you were trying to tell me.
I wasn't ready for you,
I don't think I was ready for anything.
I was a coward and I didn't want
to face what you spoke over your own life,
I didn't want to face that way.

I did fall in love with you, around Christmas time 2010,
I changed, because I wanted to do everything in my power
to change those fateful words you said.
I didn't want to face you until I could do everything I could do.

I didn't know it was okay to love you, and that it was okay to be with you,
I just wanted to be right and perfect in Gods sight, so he could give me an answer,
to help you,

I ended up pushing you away, and hurting you,
but you never left me, you always stayed there,
rejected and hurt, but you still loved me.
you probably also hated me for how bad I treated you..
I'm sorry.

I ended up changing and becoming less afraid because of you,
you were my motivation to be strong.

I was completely miserable without you, that whole year
I cried a lot because I thought, that I couldn't be with you
I thought I had to be with someone I would not love,
because I was in love with you, I am still in love with you,
all that time I loved you.

I am miserable without you, I will always be miserable without you,

I just want to face the future in a whole new way,
but with you there beside me.

I really can't see my life without you there.
I need you to be there all the time.

I believe that because of what is in your heart,
and mine that we will be together one day

because we are suppose to be.