Hiya friend
mam I relate to your experience ... but even better then that , Jesus knows exactly and I mean exactly what you're going through ..., it took a long time for me to look at my situation other than what it was... I finally a light (Jesus Christ) came into my darkness... my depression of foster care chased me and held menin bondage for years...by the grace of God I am finally out if it...
it took verses like
"who is
Man that you pay Him your mind?".
is he your God or am I?
Do you know and do you believe who
Mam says you are or do you believe me and who I say you are?
It was verses like these in Goda word that brought mento
A
Place to do an unsworn study and check my belief system?
God asks us questions in His word to check that .... with things like " Who told you" me or
Man? When I tool a closer look at my belief system it was very
Jacked up... More than I could have ever imagined... My belief system was all out of wacko
Jacko...
God changed Tjat and now has me thinking correctly...
I was surrounded by people speaking things ungodly... Words of death instead of life... No winder there was such an oppression everytime I was around them... When I learned the truth about who God says I am , I finally had something to compare everything I heard spoken... God gives us discernment skills in This.... when words are spoken that don't match up with who God tells me I am... I no longer offended or get upset about it..innow know I'm hearing things from someone who not only doesn't know who God tells them they are, they don't know who god says I am... Now I can simply laugh it off and know that what they are saying simply isn't true and instead of believing them , I believe God... I have since learned in this truth , I am hearing this from someone who "they themselves don't know who they really are"
hurting people Hurt people... I now hand what they say up to God , share my raw emotions about it with him "first" because he can handle
My emotions better than anyone else can... He already knows what I'm thinking so not sharing them with Him won't hide anything... he tells us to come to His throne exactly as we are and change nothing ... when I spill the beans of my ugly emotions to Him, He quickly reminds me of a few things...
1. Michelle, have you forgotten all you have been forgiven for? My answer? Uhhh
2. Did I ever once give you what you deserved? Are you still standing and alive? Again my answer ... Uhhhhh
3. And has my mercy given you
More than what you deserve?
if the answer is yes ... Go and do the same as I have done for you..
God puts me in check with this everytime... My anger issues have gone from a devouring raging beast full of wrath... To a pea sized little peon ... he revealed to me that I was no better than those who were wronging me... I might have not dine anything to their extreme but my words to them, about them to everyone else was doing murderous things.. Right off the tip of my tongue...
I pray that you pull close to Christ , I pray that you find comfort in His shelter... Read psalm 91... calmed my hurt in many occasions and also brought insight into what Jesus went through for
Me , when I ignored and turned my back on Him... Humbled me greatly because there is even pride that can brew from
Hurts ... I know I had lots of woe is me in it... I finally took
My hurt and nailed it to the cross... I now look at it from a much different perspective .. I now see Jesus wearing my Hurt and all He went through for me and all of us... I can't help but think now, if I hurt this
Much from this little bit of pain, I can now see why Jesus sweat great droplets of blood from His pores , in having the hurts of the world laid on Him... My Hirt was from just a few people, Jesus Hirt came from
The entire world... makes you think a little deeper doesn't it?
he loves us so much ... And keep in mind God hasn't forgotten you, or is neglecting you.. He separates his sheep from the goats... And as the world doesn't seem to know you, neither does the world know Jesus... But that is changing
Keep your focus on Christ , let nothing steal it away from
him... He has much
More to show all of us...
Love you in christ
Michelle